Well, today was Friday, and unlike most Fridays, I actually had plans today as one of my friends asked me to accompany him to an event in the city nearby - basically something happening outside with thousands of people around me and some quite tightly packed crowds. Even before going I was worried, because large crowds are always dangerous for me. Unwillingly, I will immediately compare myself to every single person and their height around me, which can bring me down easily if I get the feeling that I'm too short compared to many others around me. It's an automatic process which I have no control over, that immediately and unavoidably happens when I see other people.
But I still agreed to come, because I thought it could be nice and better than staying at home. And most of the evening actually went well. It wasn't very exciting, but I felt okay. I wore some boots which give me quite a bit of extra height and most of the time, was stretching my back as much as I could to appear in my "tallest form". And when I was standing I was often tiptoeing a little, or placing my foot on something nearby, because I did not want to feel small and short to others. And it was actually good enough, I felt very "average" compared to the lots of people around me. I even saw some men who were about my height, and some looked very "manly" and normal, and I thought nobody would mock these guys because of their height.
But a little later, I came across a mirror (I hate mirrors), and I saw myself next to my friend, who is probably about 185-188 cm, and the sight of that immediately devastated me. I had known he was taller for years, it was noting unusual, and before, when being next to him, I thought the difference was not abnormal, and he wasn't THAT taller. But when seeing that in the mirror, I looked so short, sad and miserable that they immediately all came back - the thoughts of "I will never look like a real average guy", "I will forever be stuck in this body", "I am too short for this world and everyone can see that", and so on and so forth. Such a little occasion was enough to completely devastate and break me. My friend even realized as he asked what was wrong with me.
So that was my evening, and it wasn't good. But there's still tomorrow, for me and all of you guys. Have a good one and stay strong.
Quote from: aspirant185 on January 30, 2016, 01:30:52 AMMan, I think you should do LL as quick as possible 
Things seem to have escalated. You are not 162 you are 172 and you are in the normal range which is 5'7 - 5'11. Ok, at the lower end but still at 172 people will not regard you as short. It doesnt help to go out with taller guys but, you will never be 185 like ur friend or at least I wouldnt recommend you to become. Go for around 10 cm in 2 surgeries or 7 cm in one and see how it goes.
Thank you, man. But right now, LL will have to wait. I'm still a student with no income, so I'll have to pass the time and try to stay in a positive mood. And no, I wouln't wanna be 185 - to be honest, I would probably even become satisfied with real 175, just like Patrick Stewart or Tom Hardy, haha.
Quote from: PatientZero on January 31, 2016, 12:07:27 PMHey man, it was a sad read and everyone could relate, as we've all had these days where society reminds us that we're short.
Then it comes out, the shocking revelation that you're 172cm? Lol... what?? You are like 10cm taller then some of the truly short guys on this forum.
I think you sound like a reasonable guy going through some hard times, so maybe try some 3cm lifts. Can also do some yoga/pilates to temporary lengthen your spine for 1cm as some of our members have experienced.
LL is your last resort if you're not strong enough.
Thank you man! I appreciate your response, I totally agree with you. I'm not at the point where I'm sure I'll do the surgery, but as you surely know, we all have our dark times to go through, times when we think that our height is a horrible life sentence, and there has to be a way out.
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