Day 524 (Day 366 Post clicking)
Yesterday was one year since I stopped clicking and reached my new length of 177cm. I say length and not height because of my severe duck ass I wasn't actually standing straight until recently. In the last year I have come a long way. One year ago I had really bad duckass, and now I barely have any at all. When I wear clothes it is virtually invisible. I still stretch every day and go to my physiotherapist three times a week for stretching. Every day I get a little bit better, walk a little more normal and soften up just a little bit. Long story short, I am still not 100% and to be honest that may take another year. But I am at a place where I can function 95% normal after I have stretched and walked for a bit so my muscles soften up. I have been out drinking basically twice a week since mid-May, and these nights I walk somewhere between 3-7 km. I also started running about three weeks ago, and I can now run 500m in uneven terrain at a decent pace without having to stop for breaks. A week ago I started timing my runs and I am improving my time every day now. Some people notice my slight limp (most people don't), which is much more apparent after sitting for a while. Sitting in a normal chair or car is the worst, because this is the scenario where my muscles stiffen up the most. This is basically the last frontier I have to overcome before I am 100%. It may take 3 months or it may take a year. But at this point I am functioning so well it really doesn't matter much. I am still able to do basically whatever I want now.
This journey has taken much longer than I thought, but I also lengthened a lot more than most here. Can't remember reading a diary where somebody lengthened more than me to be honest. Even if it takes another year for me to be 100% back to normal it will still be worth it imo. I am improving every day, so there really isn't much to look back at that I regret. As I have said earlier, my height dysphoria is 100% cured and have stopped comparing myself to others, and my brain seems to have almost adapted to my new height 100%. I still struggle sometimes and think people are taller than me, when they are actually shorter. But this seems to when I am sitting down. Around a year ago, I struggled gauging peoples height when standing, but not anymore. It is funny how our brains adapt.
As I wrote I have been out twice every weekend since the middle of May, and much of my experience with women has continued more of less in the same fashion. Some days are of course better than other days, but over all my new positive experiences have continued. I have on two more occasions been called handsome by random women without me asking or that even being a topic. I have also been approached by women at least once every night when I go out. And women are still very open to talk or dance when I approach them. I get a lot more looks from women and even got checked out by some famous influencer two weeks ago. Yesterday I locked eyes with a pop star at my local Sushi place, and when she looked away she smiled. So yeah, pretty much an insane improvement from what attention or response I got from women when I was short. As I've said earlier, I did pretty decent with women earlier - but how I am treated and how women respond now is on a totally different level. Since the middle of May I have probably approached 50-60 women, and all but three gave me a negative or neutral response. And I found out the one of them actually had a boyfriend. I estimate that most women weren't interested in talking to me when I was short, and most responses where neutral and maybe 10-15% where positive. So I am experiencing a huge improvement, I am looking forward to every weekend now so I can talk to and meet more girls so I can practice talking with girls to push new boundaries. I have noticed that I was so used to having to work for their attention that this low level of resistance from women is totally setting me of.
I was at concert last Friday and this group of hot girls where standing close to us. So I go over and cheers with all of them. And then go back to my group of friends. Then all of sudden this group of girls are now right next to us and the one I like is shoulder to should with me, they obviously moved closer to us. In my mind I am like, it shouldn't be this easy and has never been this easy so I honestly choke and don't know what to do. They hang around for a while, but then leave and I realize I missed my window. The rest of the evening I am kind of mad because she was really hot and I just didn't do anything. I think I am still in shock from all of this, and with time I will get more confident just go with the flow more. All of this is just so strange, new, exciting, fun and scary all at the same time.
The day after on Saturday me and a friend go out and these two girls come over, one in a tight dress (not the prettiest, but okay) asks if she can share my chair. I let her sit almost on top of me, and immediately she starts touching my and caressing my chin. She is very flirtatious and very into me and since she was like a 5-6/10 I am able to play it 100% cool and not like an idiot the day before. But at the same time I keep looking over to my friend laughing because I have never experienced anything like this before. I used to think women didn't ever or very seldom approached men. After having around 13-14 nights out under my belt as a normal height male, I can safely say women do absolutely approach men. And some of them make it so easy. Yeah, this is a completely new reality for me.
