Hello, i've been lurking for some time and finally decided to make a post.
My proportions are as follows:
height: 1.81 cm
inseam: 84.5 cm
Wingspan: 1.80 cm
sitting height: 95 cm
I was thinking about doing the surgery to get 4 cm on femurs, putting me at 1.85, but am afraid i already have short arms proportionally.
Here is an image of me so you guys can undertand better:
https://imgur.com/eBjdJ50
To those confused about what am i doing here, i used to be the tall kid most of my life, untill at sixteen, while going through depression due to acne medication. I got made fun off by three different people i admired a lot for me being unfit. That got me into a weight neurosis that made me almost stop eating and start running everyday.
The result was i lost 23kg in one year. Only stopped when people started making jokes that i looked like i had aids.
I also stopped growing. By 18 I had fallen into the average range, and my cousin (who used to be 2 or 3 cm shorter than me) was now 185 (4 cm taller than me). For a long time that didn't bother me, cause i had not connected the dots. I had finnished my acne treatment and was rid of my depression, so i focused on re-learning how to socialise (for almost two years i hadn't gone to any party or to the house of any friend) and starting to have a life again.
It worked, i learned how to live and to love life as i never had before. Untill some time ago when i realised i had probably stunted my growth. It's not that i'm sad now, but i can't shake it out of my head that i cheated myself of some quality of life.
I also would like to point out that i DO go to the therapist, i DO meditate (daily), and try my best to deal with mind issues. But i still feel i would be really happy at 1.85.
thanks man!
I've actually been thinking about tibias now since i read that they are actually safer if you use an external fixator.
That said, i lessened my goal to only 3 cms for some reasons.
The first is that longer tibias may increase chance of arthritis in old age.
3 cm is a very reasonable goal for me, i was aiming at 4 cm in order to make it worth the absurd price of stryde.
Tibias heal slower, and specially if i don't use a internal nail i don't want to loose to much time in consolidation.
While some of the time i agree with you, and think that the idea is crazy. I can't get it out of my head for over 2 months now. every day, many times a day.
I can't say that i WILL do it, at the time it's just a dream, i don't even have the money yet. That said, i think about it a lot, my therapy isn't helping, so i can't say that i won't be thinking about it 5 years from now.
I know 3 cms fews like very little. But i don't think the problem (in my case) has to do with the number exactly, and more to the feeling that i cheated myself of some of my potential.
I work a lot to improve my life, from game to meditation to studying. In every area i feel i get progressively closer to my full potential everyday that passes. Except height.
Losing weight was one of my first self-development journeys. and it is horrible to think i did myself more harm than good. it takes away SOME of the fun of all the rest.
Any suggestions for me instead of LL? lifts don't work, i already tried. I feel great with them, but when i take them off my mood worsens a lot.
Besides, to me it's not much about others seeing me as small or tall. No one ever called me short. It's the inner potential thing. I doesn't matter if no one noticed, i would (probably) notice it myself.
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