Quote from: YellowSpike on March 12, 2015, 05:36:29 PMThe only thing I will say (not that this changes anything, I own up to the fact that I'm being OCD) is that many people on here start at 5'8" and do 2 surgeries. I don't have that luxury, money, time or proportion wise. So I just wanted to be absolutely certain that I at least achieved my goal of getting to an evening height of 5'8". I've been measured a few times (still which duckass), and each time I came in at just over 5'8" ,so I think I'm fine. But then I worry about compression loss, error of measurement, etc. When you grow up your entire life and you hear (from men and women alike) that a certain height is like a cutoff, it makes you want to be absolutely sure you got it (and in my case, in one LL procedure).
But regardless, you are right. It is crazy and somewhat OCD. I've just invested too much into this, and I guess I'm the kind of person who can't not achieve my goals. I won't go into specifics about my accomplishments so as to retain my privacy...but I'm a very type-A person, and yes, a perfectionist. But yeah...I do realize I'm being unreasonable, I even said this in my diary. I admit, I got caught up in the numbers game (when I probably did get my goal anyway.
Understand your frustration, but it has been going on for some time. the normal patient will just think about it, and not obsess over it every minute. If this issue affects your social life and functioning, then it is by definition (DSM-IV) a mental illness.
I was told that I have bad knee contracture on right side (due to being wheelchair bound for weeks due to broken frame). And I might not even reach 6 feet. I am not even thinking much about it. I am happy to have gained 5 cm+.
Embrace flaws! Even 5'8 is a flaw, if you think of it, since women chose 6' as the ideal. There's no big deal being 1 mm above or lower