Posted on Sep 17, 2019, 6:18 am
#1
Hey LL community,
I'm having my bi-lateral femur surgery (Stryde) with Dr. Paley later today. Starting a diary to share with the amazing community here.
Diaries were a valuable resource to help provide me with a raw glimpse into the LL journey. A big thank you to those veteran and current LLers who have shared their journeys with us. I hope my diary helps any current or future LLers with information to glean insights from and make informed decisions over. Any support and advice from veterans or current LLers for me during my journey will be very much appreciated!
STATS
Age: Mid 30's
Gender: Male
Current Height: 5'8.5 or 174 cm at night (around 5'9 in the morning)
Goal: No crisp quantitative metrics here....my ultimate goal is to free myself of height neurosis. I don't want to get caught up in the numbers game, but personally that translates to an ideal gain ranging anywhere from 6 cm to 7 cm, with anything above deemed a bonus. I'd like to balance and optimize length and functionality. I'll listen to my body and take it day by day.
Family / Friends Doing this entirely solo - I've decided to keep this procedure private and haven't told any family or friends. The primary reason is I don't want my family and friends to worry about me as this procedure is pretty crazy in the eyes of the general public and my family/friends don't understand the depths and complexities of height neurosis. Although having them around these challenging times would be amazing and incredibly helpful, I'm fairly independent and will push forward solo.
Caretaker Booked a care taker for the first week after discharge from the hospital (4 nights in the hospital post op until discharge.) Will play it by ear but planning on 3 days at 24 hours, and 8 hrs/day thereafter.
Living Situation Staying at one of the recommended Paley hotels.
Financing Paid for the procedure with my own hard earned cash. The fees for STRYDE femurs are all over the forum so please refer to those threads for info around costs.
About myself: I'm generally content and happy in the core areas of my life (career, family/friends, women). Overall I'd say I have a healthy sense of self worth and confidence and live life with an abundance mentality..... however, one area I'm not satisfied with is my height.
I've struggled with height dysphoria for the past 5 or so years. It has manifested itself into a shoe lift addiction where I don't leave the house without my 2 inch shoe lifts. It boils down to height dysphoria creating irrational limitations on living my best life. For example, although I was satisfied with my sxx life and the options I had, I realized the height dysphoria put a real constraint on building deeper connections with some of the women I grew closer to as I avoided situations where I had to take off my shoes which pretty much rules out any normal relationship (other than laying flat on my bed with them.)
Earlier this year it got to a point where I declined an important wedding of a close loved one simply because it was on a beach and the dress code was barefoot. At that point it became painfully obvious that I was making irrational decisions based on my height issues and was slowly living a life that was not congruent with my purpose or desired life experiences.
It became clear that I needed to address the height dysphoria and I ultimately was left with two options, either 1) accept my current height at 5'8.5 and seek therapy to address the dysphoria or 2) explore LL.........Welp.....here I am a few hours away from my surgery. The main reasons I've come to this decision comes down to timing as a) I'm at this odd point in my life where my career, finances, and living situation allow me to afford the procedure and dedicate the massive amount of time required for it and b) the advent of the recent STRYDE technology and the game changing factor of being able to weight bear (timing is everything isn't it!?!?) Deep down inside I knew had I not gone forward with LL it would have been something I'd think about for the rest of my life and it's not so often where you are at a point in your life where you have the time and finances to do something as life changing as LL, so.....here I am!
One thing I want to make clear. I'm not doing LL for any external person or thing. My height has never presented itself as a real issue when it comes to my dating life, my career, or how my family/friends view me. The reality is I have height neurosis, a mental issue where I am not satisfied with my natural height and I'm addressing it through LL. I want to emphasize that I am doing this for me.
I did my research and had a short list of potential surgeons to go with but ended up with Paley simply based on his experience and reputation as the #1 LL surgeon in the world which I believe best stacks the odds of a successful outcome in my favor.
Current Mood 40% nervous/ anxious, 40% excited, 20% WTF am I really doing this?!?!? I've been planning this surgery for quite some time now and have put off living my normal life (planning vacations, dating certain women long term, hanging out with friends) in anticipation of knowing I will be off the grid, dedicating 100% of myself to LL for at least 5 months.....so it goes without saying that I'm excited to get this show on the road.
The fear mostly stems from the solo aspect of all of this and the psychological challenges that come with solitude and loneliness. In fact, the psychological aspect of this scares me more than the physical aspect, which I know, will take every ounce of strength, patience, and determination to push through the pain and general physical limitations.
OTHER I did quite a bit of planning/shopping for things leading up to my operation. I'll share that list with you guys once I've had a few weeks to really understand what worked for me and what didn't.
I also want to say thank you to the members of this community who have helped me along the way (too many to list, you know who you are!)
I'm having my bi-lateral femur surgery (Stryde) with Dr. Paley later today. Starting a diary to share with the amazing community here.
Diaries were a valuable resource to help provide me with a raw glimpse into the LL journey. A big thank you to those veteran and current LLers who have shared their journeys with us. I hope my diary helps any current or future LLers with information to glean insights from and make informed decisions over. Any support and advice from veterans or current LLers for me during my journey will be very much appreciated!
STATS
Age: Mid 30's
Gender: Male
Current Height: 5'8.5 or 174 cm at night (around 5'9 in the morning)
Goal: No crisp quantitative metrics here....my ultimate goal is to free myself of height neurosis. I don't want to get caught up in the numbers game, but personally that translates to an ideal gain ranging anywhere from 6 cm to 7 cm, with anything above deemed a bonus. I'd like to balance and optimize length and functionality. I'll listen to my body and take it day by day.
Family / Friends Doing this entirely solo - I've decided to keep this procedure private and haven't told any family or friends. The primary reason is I don't want my family and friends to worry about me as this procedure is pretty crazy in the eyes of the general public and my family/friends don't understand the depths and complexities of height neurosis. Although having them around these challenging times would be amazing and incredibly helpful, I'm fairly independent and will push forward solo.
Caretaker Booked a care taker for the first week after discharge from the hospital (4 nights in the hospital post op until discharge.) Will play it by ear but planning on 3 days at 24 hours, and 8 hrs/day thereafter.
Living Situation Staying at one of the recommended Paley hotels.
Financing Paid for the procedure with my own hard earned cash. The fees for STRYDE femurs are all over the forum so please refer to those threads for info around costs.
About myself: I'm generally content and happy in the core areas of my life (career, family/friends, women). Overall I'd say I have a healthy sense of self worth and confidence and live life with an abundance mentality..... however, one area I'm not satisfied with is my height.
I've struggled with height dysphoria for the past 5 or so years. It has manifested itself into a shoe lift addiction where I don't leave the house without my 2 inch shoe lifts. It boils down to height dysphoria creating irrational limitations on living my best life. For example, although I was satisfied with my sxx life and the options I had, I realized the height dysphoria put a real constraint on building deeper connections with some of the women I grew closer to as I avoided situations where I had to take off my shoes which pretty much rules out any normal relationship (other than laying flat on my bed with them.)
Earlier this year it got to a point where I declined an important wedding of a close loved one simply because it was on a beach and the dress code was barefoot. At that point it became painfully obvious that I was making irrational decisions based on my height issues and was slowly living a life that was not congruent with my purpose or desired life experiences.
It became clear that I needed to address the height dysphoria and I ultimately was left with two options, either 1) accept my current height at 5'8.5 and seek therapy to address the dysphoria or 2) explore LL.........Welp.....here I am a few hours away from my surgery. The main reasons I've come to this decision comes down to timing as a) I'm at this odd point in my life where my career, finances, and living situation allow me to afford the procedure and dedicate the massive amount of time required for it and b) the advent of the recent STRYDE technology and the game changing factor of being able to weight bear (timing is everything isn't it!?!?) Deep down inside I knew had I not gone forward with LL it would have been something I'd think about for the rest of my life and it's not so often where you are at a point in your life where you have the time and finances to do something as life changing as LL, so.....here I am!
One thing I want to make clear. I'm not doing LL for any external person or thing. My height has never presented itself as a real issue when it comes to my dating life, my career, or how my family/friends view me. The reality is I have height neurosis, a mental issue where I am not satisfied with my natural height and I'm addressing it through LL. I want to emphasize that I am doing this for me.
I did my research and had a short list of potential surgeons to go with but ended up with Paley simply based on his experience and reputation as the #1 LL surgeon in the world which I believe best stacks the odds of a successful outcome in my favor.
Current Mood 40% nervous/ anxious, 40% excited, 20% WTF am I really doing this?!?!? I've been planning this surgery for quite some time now and have put off living my normal life (planning vacations, dating certain women long term, hanging out with friends) in anticipation of knowing I will be off the grid, dedicating 100% of myself to LL for at least 5 months.....so it goes without saying that I'm excited to get this show on the road.
The fear mostly stems from the solo aspect of all of this and the psychological challenges that come with solitude and loneliness. In fact, the psychological aspect of this scares me more than the physical aspect, which I know, will take every ounce of strength, patience, and determination to push through the pain and general physical limitations.
OTHER I did quite a bit of planning/shopping for things leading up to my operation. I'll share that list with you guys once I've had a few weeks to really understand what worked for me and what didn't.
I also want to say thank you to the members of this community who have helped me along the way (too many to list, you know who you are!)