You don't need therapy my friend. You need to be 5'10'' + ... I lengthened my femurs and experienced the same disappointment in the airport on the way home when I realized I still felt short in the crowd. In fact, I remember thinking to myself, "Wow, I don't feel much of a difference at all." The good news is that lengthening both segments gives the best visual result anyway. I'm going back for tibs for a few reasons: 1.) I still feel short 2.) my gait is off because my femurs are disproportionately long 3.) lengthening both segments most certainly produces the best aesthetic ... you'll look normal ... just a lot taller. I've enjoyed your diary so much. In your disappointment, don't forget that you've won something for yourself. What you did is unheard of in the general population. You just need a bit more ... Believe me, if you do your tibs also, your height will really pop. There won't be any doubt. I'm considering Monegal myself. Would you recommend him for internal tibias? I consulted with Mahboubian as well, but the price is steep in L.A. We'll see ...
Dr. Monegal / Spain / Bilateral Femurs / Fitbone / August 25, 2015
Hey Bohemia! This is totally understandable. Remember at this very moment it is totally out of your control. At this moment you are going to have to let your body recuperate before you even can go in for another surgery. I urge you to not sweat this while it's out of your control. You made a great step in transforming your life. Take a step back and appreciate what you have achieved so far. Now it's time for you to dive into your work or whatever you were thinking you wanted to achieve after this last surgery. If in three months from now you want to do that surgery, awesome! You've just gone through some discipline to spend three months healing your body. That takes amazing commitment. Take 3 months to commit to another goal. It doesn't mean you are going to relinquish goal of having another surgery. It just means your mind needs something else to commit to while you heal from your existing surgery.
I would argue for you too seek therapy in your case Bohemia. I can understand the need to keep going in terms of becoming even taller then what you've achieved but perhaps therapy could help alleviate some pain you're mentally feeling right now. Ultimately, I don't know it will work or not, but considering the implications of going through this process again you should try as best you can to make sure you're not gonna rush into it.
LL doesn't cure depression and body dysmorphia. Those need to be cured psychologically.
Bohemia, try wearing some 1.5" shoes/shoe lifts for a while and seeing if this helps you with your height dysmorphia. If it doesn't, then another surgery probably won't cure it. I wear quite thick soled sneakers to get me to 5'10", and I don't feel short at all. My height dysmorphia is gone. I think you can get away with adding an inch to your shoes without anyone calling you out on it.
How tall are you now, M, to still feel short in the airport crowd after LL?
I agree with Dave. You should take at least a year or two for yourself. Pursue some interest that you enjoy and just get LL out of your head while you recover. If after that time your height is still bothering you, you'll know what to do. It's been 5 years since I had the surgery. On the other hand, you don't want to wait too long because when it comes to healing, there's nothing like a young body. Don't waste your life in depression. Enjoy each step in the process and remember to celebrate the victories in your life as they come. DoingItForMe ... You're a bit taller than me. 5'9'' is a fine height 
Bohemia,
you are the same with 8 cms more than before, You have now a bit more confidence.
You are the same without 8 Kg less than before. You have now a bit more confidence.
Enjoy the path and you new height. Give you time.
we are Never going to be enough tall to play in the NBA, you can know this.
Is you are a normal boy after LL you will be a normal boy but taller
Cheers
Quote from: Bohemia on December 01, 2015, 10:21:18 PMI regret to inform everyone that I crutched around today in normal shoes and I still suffer from height dysphoria. 5'8.5 still feels small.
I have become depressed again, and wonder about tibias for 5'10+
Maybe I need therapy, IDK
I believe it's just the fact that now you know it's possible to get taller but congrats and wow 5' 8.5" is an amazing height in my eyes. But of course I'm only 5' 4" so that sounds great to me. I think you just need time and after 3-5 months if you still not satisfied then you have option.
Don't forget at what height you started 8cm is an enormous accomplishment
To be honest, 5'8.5" is still small, even people who are 5'10 and 5'11 nowadays are still having height phobia.
The only height which is considered not small is 190cm+ who happens to be my German roommate. He actually told everyone he felt big. Or you can try and become a rap star who looks big on TV and in music but small in person.
Eventually there will come a day where we can increase 20cm+ safely and economically. Until then, I just be content with myself and check up the news once in a while for something positive.
Today's news... James Deen, pornstar who is watched by Taylor Swift, is 170cm. You're taller than him if that makes you feel better 
Quote from: Bohemia on December 01, 2015, 10:21:18 PMI regret to inform everyone that I crutched around today in normal shoes and I still suffer from height dysphoria. 5'8.5 still feels small.
I have become depressed again, and wonder about tibias for 5'10+
Maybe I need therapy, IDK
Sorry to hear how you are feeling. I agree with others when they say that it's too early to become accustomed to your new height. Just concentrate on your full recovery and don't worry too much about the world around you for now.
metamorphosis: a change of the form or nature of a thing or person into a completely different one, by natural or supernatural means.
this entire process(not just physical) takes time.
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