Hello,

I am posting this just for some perspective.

I recently turned 28 and stand 5'4". I first of heard of this surgery when I was 17 and it sounded ridiculous back then. I slowly warmed myself to the idea of it and by the time I was 19 I had decided I wanted to do it. But I was in school and had to finish it before doing LL. That's when I started telling my family about it. My parents took 2 years to accept my decision although very involuntarily. They would repeatedly tell me about how their lives were worse and that there are poor people in India and that I was being superficial.

By the time I got out of college I had already saved up $30k from doing freelancing and internships. I got a very good job out of college and saved up another $70k over a couple of years. So by the time I was 23, I was fully ready to get LL.

However it has been 4 years since then and a total of 10 years since I first decided to do it. I have been stuck in this state of limbo for 6-7 years, not wanting to do anything important in life but at the same time not getting enough courage to do LL. I have tried to remove LL from my mind completely several times but it just keeps coming back. For 6 years, I didn't date a girl, I didn't change jobs, I didn't get an advanced degree, because to me LL was always 6 months away. So I could not commit to anything serious in life. My relationships with many people have gotten cold because of this.

Now I feel like a useless person for wasting several wonderful years of life being indecisive. I could have been way happier had I done LL or even if I had completely decided against it. Being stuck on the fence has drained the life out of me.

My advice to anyone younger is to either just jump in and do it or forget about it completely. I can't describe how worthless I feel about myself. I already feel too old. Every year I waited, everything got worse about my life including the benefit of doing LL.

Just for the heck of finding out what this surgery could have given me I am going to do it this time. Whether I piss my pants in the hospital's waiting room or even if my parents ask me for the 100th time if my legs will be same again, I am going to it. Fcck it.