Goodnight in depression

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Hey how is ur night or day going about me i am 159cm tall never had a girlfriend got left by the girls who i had sex with later fked prostitutes my lifelong was looking somehow good sometimes in my life especially teenage years then since i turned over 21 i just left gym looked bad lost my friends because of my jealousity neither has friends nor ever had a girlfriend neither have a job neither habe an eeucation neither i can find my interest neither i can keep working i always quiet when i start to work in some so called farmers job either its as deliverer or driver i wanted a change in my life not everyone lives the same life nor has the same conditions i wanted to change and just talk to girls on street on forests like i wanted to finally date a girl and so but in the last days i got rejected so many times so Now that I am in really bad mood which makes it worsw is that i dont know what to do in my life in my tennager years i always hoped for being a professional football or soccer player but never achieved it i made many breaks due to injury or just because i was antisocial till 23 mid i dreamt of it and never achieved it i as i said cant work i really dont know i am thinking about just leaving everything and going to live in the forests in africa in asia somewhere where i just live if i find something to eat while in africa i might get eaten too i wanna live since i never had a girlfriend and never really lived my sexual life fully i am always hungry to it i want to be a playboy i know it sounds weird and u would not feel bad if u read that but yesss i dont care so much anymore or i want to change can u give me advises or just talk with me about these things

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Montreal mate thanks for ur message was so frustrated the last days so much so i just wrote this it somehow seems like i am more immun to rejections now since i could sleep yesterday first time around 7 hours haha. Consistent means a serious relationship i think and yeah not even this works for me actually i just become a loser in every aspect in this life i just know that if i dont look good then become one will work on me and my body and my game all around probably when i have enough money i will also do ll but to be sure that limb lengthening is my solutiion i have to try everything first