Hi people
quite interesting topic. I learned quite a lot from this thread especially from CCMidwest and Chris. And I do understand quite well what Chris said coz I feel kind of the same way. I gotta say first that I have been thinking about it for many years but not necessarily because of height, but it is more complex.
I think that the point of suicide is the outcome of the summation of negative brain activities such as depression, despair, aggression, impulsiveness, hopelessness, fatigue, etc after being balanced by positive brain activities such as hope, optimism, persistance, relaxation, happiness, etc. Suicide is a big commitment that needs a wipe out in normal brain function. All people have different goals, personalities, perspectives, and thoughts in their life, and confront different difficulties, frustrations, failures, and so on. When positive things start losing by negative things, suicidal impulse starts being activated. Suicidal impulse can be caused by only one big factor that could be a big financial loss, loss of the love, or even height for some one, or by multiple small but significant factors that could be kind of my case. I was born in a very poor family but a quite smart kid, which may be not a good thing for a bogy from a poor family at least in my country. I was not able to accept my inborn destiny which would be just to find a job and make a living for the family. I chose a difficult goal and am still struggling to achieve it after being over 40, and that is my biggest factor that gives me the most stress. Height is another small factor that has bothered me for years. I may be too ambitious or perfectionest. but that is who I am. It is just so hard for me to accept why I need to live this kind of life (not only height but all the difficulties and problems I had and have to deal with).
But, anyway, I feel I am still not considfering suicide and probably won't. but I really do understand how those who consider suicide feel. For Bigpoppapump and Chris, if height is only factor that drives you the point of suicidal impulse, then plan for it and do it someday, because that is at lease something relatively easily achievable as long as you can make time and money for it. I think we all can endure the pain of ll since we all endure hard life. I dont think you guys care about propotion or bull . Try not to think about height itself rather focus on improving your career or life or making more money. When time and money allow you to do ll, do it and live a life with happniess. If you have multiple factors that annoy you, then try to dissect them into an indivisual factor so that you can tackle one by one. Sometimes, if people have multiple problems, people tend to be more confused and more easily lost. So tackle one by one. You can do it!!
Good luck to you guys,
Ghostfish
