Hi, I'm an arabic guy born in Spain, I will be 20 years old in September, I got rage issues and I have been all my life mostly stressed and always went to the opposite way that I should so what I am trying now basically is fixing myself. I always got issues home and in school, my culture at home was too different from what I learnt in school and I always felt different and got bullied when i was kid. I feel I stunted my growth, i've been checking hypothyroidism symptoms and I suffered them all when I was teen. Now I am 19 with a height of 5'11 or 180 cm, my dad is really short but because of malnutrition, my stepbrother son of my dad is 206 cm, my grandad was over 2 meters too and I feel I could have been really tall too if I did not pass hormonal troubles. Hypothyroidism makes you insomnia either and I average slept 5 hours in all my life for sure, I smoked tobacco too since 12, i feel terrified with my past and I just want to forget everything, I feel that by doing this surgery I could give myself a new chance of being who I am. I dont want to do more mistakes with my health, I want to make sure this surgery will not ruin my life later if i go for a cheap one, I dont mind saving up money 5 years to do it, it's just my dream i want to born again. I would like to get some experience from people in this forum so I can drive myself a bit on how much money should i save up for a safe surgery and nice results. I want to go for 8 cm or 10 if its not too risky. What is the most equilibrated (money-risks) way to do the surgery? I thought about italy since its recommended and near to spain. I just want some advice, do i have to pass all the year out of Spain?
Extra info: I have been always the tallest in my class, but later everyone growed a lot and I did not, in 6 days I'll make an x-ray to see if growth plates fused, maybe due hormonal probs i could have a growth spurt?
Until this day I keep smoking, less than before but still I keep smoking industrial cigs, average 5-8 x day
This is me and my girlfriend - https://imgur.com/a/Rz3Wkus
She knows and accepted me doing it, I actually do not do it for looks, I do it because I destroyed my growth and everytime I think about it I feel dying, I know with time it won't be that terrorific for me but still I can't be myself and that will always chase me. I am not insecure of myself, I just want to forget about my past and this would help me a lot.
My health has been always so bad, it's more than obvious for me that I did it, sleep deprivation (less growth hormone), smoking (cortisol), being fat (high estrogen, low testosterone), hypothyroidism (all hormones), bad nutrition, and not much sun received (vitamin D, testosterone)
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