just for an update
been here a week waiting for a so called friend to take 2 photos for visa.... he comes yesterday with someone, takes photos.... I give them 100 dirhams... and today, i call him all day..... nothing... can not get a hold of him
so at this point, I'm left with very limited options...... depressed.....
ill try to update soon
i'm ready to blow my brains out
btw, just as a heads up to anyone thinking of mitkovic.... don't even try.... he won't contact you...
i just heard that dr bagirov wants to see me as soon as possible, and is very concerned, i think because he heard i want the release done... he is very against it
but honestly, i can not put my heels on the ground ... so i am in bedd all day basically.... and wearing these frames 5 or 6 more months.. not sure i can handle that either.... the visa process for me now to get to russia would be very complicated.... I'm an american in morocco... and currently have no helpers, so to do anything is a huge chore
i don't know what I'm gonna do, i feel very depressed......... if i had the funds for everything, id just fly to south africa, but i don't.... could only get release there, nothing else.
just very depressed..... feel alone, no one to help...... I'm in a hotel room all day, eating once a day....
just feel that the people/person that was supposed to be there for me deserted me.... awful feeling
This is awful...im really concerned now, do you not have anybody, no family who can help you?? This could end up really dangerous being in such a condition with limited funds in a country like Morocco..
You need to find a way to get out of there, focus on getting home to America first so you can be around some of your friends or family before thinking about doing a release, you can eventually do that later if you really want it.
i need to fix ballerina first.... i have some funds but not enough for removal,etc in certain countries...
i could get a plane to america now, but wouldn't be much help... i need to get x trays, see a specialist,etc..,. very expensive in new york
i have no parents, no siblings... i have a few uncles and aunts.... no one will help though... its just how my family is... they are all very old too
i told my uncle my situation, he said to me that i'll get through it.... so that was the end of it
my other problem is i would have to find a place to stay...dont have family that would take me in, i had 1 friend offer, but he's going to be living in a basement.... that would be impossible for me... i wouldn't be able to ever go out....
my feet also look awful... i mean just dirty, extremely dry, etc... not sure why my feet are so dry and scaly... i know why they are dirty.... i don't have anyone to help me bathe, so I'm dirty, and smell badly,I'm sure
i have to figure something out quickly,can't take too much more
Quote from: crimsontide on July 24, 2014, 10:26:34 PMi need to fix ballerina first.... i have some funds but not enough for removal,etc in certain countries...
i could get a plane to america now, but wouldn't be much help... i need to get x trays, see a specialist,etc..,. very expensive in new york
i have no parents, no siblings... i have a few uncles and aunts.... no one will help though... its just how my family is... they are all very old too
i told my uncle my situation, he said to me that i'll get through it.... so that was the end of it
my other problem is i would have to find a place to stay...dont have family that would take me in, i had 1 friend offer, but he's going to be living in a basement.... that would be impossible for me... i wouldn't be able to ever go out....
my feet also look awful... i mean just dirty, extremely dry, etc... not sure why my feet are so dry and scaly... i know why they are dirty.... i don't have anyone to help me bathe, so I'm dirty, and smell badly,I'm sure
i have to figure something out quickly,can't take too much more
My feet get dry to and dead skin fall off, well it used to happen but it has become less of a problem now. Its partly because of the reduced blood circulation (like when you mentioned your feet swelling up occassionally) as well as not showering the legs and feet. Its normal.
I dont really know what you should do, in America the system wont take care of you like they would in Sweden.. But at least if you are home you will be more safe, and even if you dont get release it will eventually dissappear. You will save money living with your friend compared to a motel in another country
yes, i was thinking it's less circulation
ty wannabe
i could go to america now, but i can't take having ballerina so long, etc... and even frames now
i want frames off mainly so ill be clean,etc... i won't have caretakers, so washing myself is very difficult.. but if i didn't have frames, i could just lay in a bathtub.. which i can't do with the frames on
Quote from: crimsontide on July 24, 2014, 10:49:11 PMyes, i was thinking it's less circulation
ty wannabe
i could go to america now, but i can't take having ballerina so long, etc... and even frames now
i want frames off mainly so ill be clean,etc... i won't have caretakers, so washing myself is very difficult.. but if i didn't have frames, i could just lay in a bathtub.. which i can't do with the frames on
Okey but how will you fix the Visa if your "friends" there abandoned you? if they dont get in touch soon you should reconsider..
Are you really sure you need this release surgery, even though Dr. Bagirov says you don't? How much standing and weight-bearing are you doing each day?
wannabe, i agree... if i don't hear something by end of tomorrow, i have to make other plans
medium, none in a week or so... except getting in and out of chair... the hotel rom I'm in is very very difficult to navigate.... not made for someone in my condition... if i were walking, it might go away... but that's the thing... i can't walk upright, both my heels will not touch the ground, so i don't like to walk... its very awkward to walk high on my toes... back of my ankle,etc are very sore, because they are tight
i can bend knees, etc... not in pain really
i just tried to lift my leg without using my hands... what i mean is while lying down, lift my leg up high, and i can do it without some help from my arms
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