TrailBlazer LON Tibia - Dr. Muharrem Inan

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Nice to see you are geting better bro!

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Everything seems to be coming along well for you and I don't recall you having very much pain with LON/Monorails either.

I will have to bite the bullet and go with this doctor. I will be only lengthening 6 cm so I don't see anything going terribly wrong, even with monorails.

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As far as pain goes it has been not bad at all. The PTAL surgery was by far the most painful that was the worst two days for me. The first two weeks of the initial surgery is not great but manageable. I had the epidural for the first four days which I am sure would have been horrible without it.

I really like the monorails and don't see why they have such a bad reputation. I would get the monorails again I thought they were really comfortable considering the circumstances. The pins in the monorail are big but they do not hurt at all. The pins also are really strong and do not bend like the Illizarov. The only thing with the monorail is I am not sure if it can adjust alignment, but maybe they can.

@galaxy1 I think the most important thing is to have reasonable expectations which it seems you do with 6 cm. I remember when I first heard about this procedure I wanted 10 cm lol. Since I got here I have learned that it is better to be safe.

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Quote from: TrailBlazer on February 04, 2015, 06:51:43 AMAs far as pain goes it has been not bad at all. The PTAL surgery was by far the most painful that was the worst two days for me. The first two weeks of the initial surgery is not great but manageable. I had the epidural for the first four days which I am sure would have been horrible without it.

I really like the monorails and don't see why they have such a bad reputation. I would get the monorails again I thought they were really comfortable considering the circumstances. The pins in the monorail are big but they do not hurt at all. The pins also are really strong and do not bend like the Illizarov. The only thing with the monorail is I am not sure if it can adjust alignment, but maybe they can.

@galaxy1 I think the most important thing is to have reasonable expectations which it seems you do with 6 cm. I remember when I first heard about this procedure I wanted 10 cm lol. Since I got here I have learned that it is better to be safe.
There are people who have lengthened successfully with monorails and my feeling is that it is mostly the larger lads that have valgus and equinus complications. Well, let's hope I won't have to deal with any of that.

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Quote from: TrailBlazer on January 03, 2015, 07:09:21 PM
Height

Honestly the height is kind of hard to tell right now, I am not around people that I was when I had my old height so it doesn't seem like I am taller. However, I obviously am taller because I measure myself against the wall. Sometimes I have dreams that I am back to my old height which is terrible!

Amount Gained

I have gone back and forth on whether or not I am glad that I stopped at 6.35 cm instead of going to 7 cm. Sometimes I wish I pushed it farther to get to a solid 5'9" but than I realize that you can't get stuck in the numbers game. 6.5 mm is not that much and really doesn't make that much of different on how people will see you. I think that going past 6 cm is when you start losing athletic ability for the long term. It baffles me how someone that is 5'6" to start with could gain 10 cm in the tibia. Just my advice to future LLers.

Avoiding the forum

BTW I have been trying to avoid the forum because I don't want to think as much about height anymore. I am trying to get over my "height neurosis" and I feel it is easier if I avoid reading things about it. I do feel that I owe this forum a lot and so I try to update some.

Thanks Everyone!

Dude, I think the same exact way as you do. Once I'm fully recovered, I'm not gonna be visiting this forum much anymore, I want to put this height thing behind me. I have found myself obsessing over millimeters (freaking MILLIMETERS) that I maybe could have gone for, when I achieved a great gain already. Even caring about cm (thanks you Europeans - lol) is nuts when I think about it, it's all about the inches you gain. Splitting hairs has made me virtually nuts over this.

I also am like you in that I stopped a tiny bit sooner than I wanted (my goal was 6.5-7cm, I got 6.75+, so I'm mostly happy) because I was experiencing excruciating pain all around. My body was telling it was time to stop around 5cm, but there was no way in hell I was stopping before at least 6cm. And you're close to 5'9", so you're good. I feel very average at 5'8", and I still have duck ass taking some visual height away. When standing next to my dad and boss and a great friend of mine (all my former height), I virtually tower over them. I just feel so much taller than them.

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Hey Yellowspike,

Yeah I have felt that me and you are in a really similar situation as far as height and what we were trying to achieve. I have been following your diary some and feel like you have the same thought process as me. That is cool that you feel so much taller with your current height. I am anxious to see my family and friends and hopefully feel the same way as you.

It sometimes bothers me that I didn't get 7 cm still but it is just important to get over our feelings of inadequacy with height because there are some really badass people that are 5'8" - 5'9", Sean Penn and Tom Cruise to name a few. There are basically no one cooler than those two and we are there height now! It makes me happy to think like that. I got 2.5 inches and is 2.75 inches really that much difference???  I really hope, Yellowspike, that me and you both get over our height problems and achieve other goals that we can actually share with everyone we know. It sometimes is frustrating feeling like you accomplished so much but never get to tell anyone.

Small Update

My bone bridged a couple of weeks ago and I have been getting to walking unaided. I walk pretty good now and once you start walking unaided it takes no time to start walking normally. My achilles lengthening surgery is pretty well healed but my achilles is still weak and sometimes gets sore if I walk too much. It is not that bad though. I expect to run, jump, and be 100 percent of my former self. My knees feel just like they did before LL now. There isn't much else to say.

If anyone has any questions feel free to ask.

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How are the scars from your monorail frames?

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Quote from: TrailBlazer on February 24, 2015, 07:51:53 PMHey Yellowspike,

Yeah I have felt that me and you are in a really similar situation as far as height and what we were trying to achieve. I have been following your diary some and feel like you have the same thought process as me. That is cool that you feel so much taller with your current height. I am anxious to see my family and friends and hopefully feel the same way as you.

It sometimes bothers me that I didn't get 7 cm still but it is just important to get over our feelings of inadequacy with height because there are some really badass people that are 5'8" - 5'9", Sean Penn and Tom Cruise to name a few. There are basically no one cooler than those two and we are there height now! It makes me happy to think like that. I got 2.5 inches and is 2.75 inches really that much difference???  I really hope, Yellowspike, that me and you both get over our height problems and achieve other goals that we can actually share with everyone we know. It sometimes is frustrating feeling like you accomplished so much but never get to tell anyone.

Small Update

My bone bridged a couple of weeks ago and I have been getting to walking unaided. I walk pretty good now and once you start walking unaided it takes no time to start walking normally. My achilles lengthening surgery is pretty well healed but my achilles is still weak and sometimes gets sore if I walk too much. It is not that bad though. I expect to run, jump, and be 100 percent of my former self. My knees feel just like they did before LL now. There isn't much else to say.

If anyone has any questions feel free to ask.

Yeah. I may need to leave this forum sooner rather than later. It's making me obsess about the difference between 6.75cm+ that I got vs pushing to 6.85cm or 7cm (10-25mm, less than 1/10th of an inch). That's how bad it's getting. I guess because 7cm was my ultimate goal and the top of my "acceptable" range of 6.5-7cm (and what Dr. Guichet said he believed I could go to)...but I did 5 more clicks today (to make sure the click file actually says 6.75cm (I'm virtually certain I'm over 6.75cm because it doesn't include practice clicks in the hospital plus a few extra I threw in early on) after 3 days of not clicking. Now I'm wondering if I really just stop or compromise and go to 6.85cm (in between where I am now and 7cm)? But then, at 6.85cm, will that be enough? I am working from home, and need to get back into the office within the next 2-3 weeks. I had wanted to go back without crutches, but now I've cut it very close. I'm just so ambivalent...

Height neurosis is the worst. I just want to know that I'm 5'8". If I'm a tad under, I don't have to know about it. I may be like an anorexic woman who has recovered from anorexia, but can't be weighed. Meaning, I may never allow myself to be measured (or, be told my height, at least) ever again in this lifetime. When I visit the doctor in the future, I will tell him beforehand not to tell me my height. I'll just consider myself 5'8" and be done with it.

Regardless, TrailBlazer, I wish you the best, and I hope both of our futures are very bright

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Yellowspike,
I definitely understand what you are going through. I suggest getting off the forum because it does make all of us crazy. Height does matter but not as much as we make it out to be. I went about a month where I would measure myself against the wall everyday. I have decided not to measure myself anymore and not to worry about it because height is always varying and is frustrating. I think measuring ourselves is the worst thing we can do, just let it be.
What I have done in recently is stepped on something that was a quarter of an inch taller and looked in the mirror and ask myself, "will being a quarter of an inch taller make me any better." I really don't think it does and no one will notice that small amount anyway. Focus on your health now and let it go. I am sure that you will have a better life if you let it go rather than being any taller.

I wish you the best as well Yellowspike. If you need to talk I am definitely here for you.

Taller,
The scars are not that bad they are fading albeit slowly, if I get around to it I will post pictures.

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Quote from: TrailBlazer on February 24, 2015, 10:53:23 PMYellowspike,
I definitely understand what you are going through. I suggest getting off the forum because it does make all of us crazy. Height does matter but not as much as we make it out to be. I went about a month where I would measure myself against the wall everyday. I have decided not to measure myself anymore and not to worry about it because height is always varying and is frustrating. I think measuring ourselves is the worst thing we can do, just let it be.
What I have done in recently is stepped on something that was a quarter of an inch taller and looked in the mirror and ask myself, "will being a quarter of an inch taller make me any better." I really don't think it does and no one will notice that small amount anyway. Focus on your health now and let it go. I am sure that you will have a better life if you let it go rather than being any taller.

I wish you the best as well Yellowspike. If you need to talk I am definitely here for you.

Taller,
The scars are not that bad they are fading albeit slowly, if I get around to it I will post pictures.

I agree with the bolded parts. If you are fussing over 0.1 cm it might well be BDD, or at least a mild case of it. Its like obsessing over 1 kg (or, if we are talking about a fair comparison, obsession over 0.1 kg?? its kinda weird).

this forum people have a distorted view of height. (see my thread on this). You easily get influenced about the importance of height, the so-called ideal height, and yada yada yada. And even so many patients here have mental issues.