two weeks away from quadrilateral- getting cold feet!!

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Hi All,
I'm a woman in late 40s and 4'9''. I'm scheduled for quadrialteral with Dr. Assayag in Baltimore in a few weeks. I've been so excited about this for months, but now i'm freaking out and may cancel. This will be my only chance to do this because once I'm over 50 (and a woman), bone growth gets much more challenging. Can anyone provide me advice, feedback?
Words of wisdom?
thank you!

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I'm actually considered a little person (under 4'10'') so my insurance should pay for most of it, won't find out until the week before the surgery... I'm afraid of the long recovery, going into depression during recovery due to being so sedentary and immobile, and the PAIN!!!!!  and complications.