Quote from: IwannaBeTaller on July 31, 2018, 02:35:27 PMWhat an incredibly idiotic thing to say.
I don't know if I told you guys but I have started coming out and telling people what I did to myself just because I couldn't keep up with the lies anymore of how both legs can be broken at exactly the same place. First excuse, was a 1m rock climbing fall while harnessed but I swung onto a rock protrusion that neatly fractured my femurs at the same place.
And for other friends, I told them that I voluntarily got my curved femur fixed which includes an osteotomy and nail insertion because I was falling a lot at one point (NHS found the reason now, it's because I'm hypermobile and my ankle soft tissues are weak, so they don't hold me steadily - hence, ankle resistant band exercises).
Also the fact that I was paying by myself when in fact at the time, I was still covered by Merrill Lynch's AXA private insurance. So I told everyone private care would pay only for a plaster cast and I would need to be in bed for at least a month minimum. Hence, I opted for an elective self pay of £55k for weight bearing nails. And these nails today are so high tech that they're telescopic too because in trauma cases a lot of limbs become disproportionate and need length correction.
But then when the right leg became longer than the left leg by 7cm, and then ranaway to 9.7cm - the stories became quite hard to spin. My parents visited to take care of me for 6 months last year because I had run out of funds to hire a nurse, I had to click everyday and was crying in agony at each session 3 times a day. My poor dad, at some point, he had to hold onto one leg so that I can rachet. Imagine seeing your child in so much pain and not being able to do anything about it. I'm so glad they came because I was a total mess. Even my first consultation with NHS, I needed to be wheeled in by my father as I couldn't crutch that far.
Anyway, I continued lying to my parents that one telescopic nail on my right leg was loose and ran away, that's why I was 10cm taller and the difficult racheting process was to ensure that my left leg would catch up with the new height. Whether they bought the story or not, they never questioned me. I'm so glad that my parents were here, I was very angry at everyone at that point, there was so little hope and I was afraid that NHS would turn me down because I was a private cosmetic surgeon patient. One medical student even told me I was defrauding the NHS system when I was admitted to A&E for infection because I had been under private medical care. But during the first consultation, my NHS orthopedist cried, then I cried because she cried, then the nurse cried too. Then we started laughing for being so emotional which, doctors and nurses usually aren't. So I really lucked out and this is only because I was introduced to another Guichet non-union patient who was under her care. He too was terrified that NHS would turn him away too because he ran out of funds too, couldn't return to his job and ended up driving an Uber just to make ends meet.
One time, I got an xray done while I was in Malaysia as it was 80% cheaper and even the poor orthopedic surgeon was so puzzled by the large non-union gap and nail. He thought I got into such a terrible accident that pulverized a section of my femur bone and trauma surgeons had to debride the entire segment and insert a trauma nail for limb reconstruction.
So many lies... finally, I told all my friends - not my family yet because I think they're the ones that saw me suffer the most and they would be very very very angry. My brother had already asked me once if I did all this because I lengthened my leg, and I quickly denied it coz I fear their wrath and moreso, their disappointment in me. How did I fail so much in life?
I have a boyfriend now and at first I lied to him too, and finally I decided to tell everyone. I feel much better. Most people are quite understanding. One friend's mum even said she wants to do it because she wished to be 5cm taller her entire life. Most people accept it like when someone says they want a boob job done (except we know the risks and technology are not the same at all). We ALL have our INSECURITIES whether it's receding and hair loss, bad skin, weight issues, liposuction, height neurosis, physical looks and it's interesting to see that friends in my 40's age group are finally financially stable enough to realize their cosmetic surgery dreams and they're all going for it, little tweaks here and there.
So it's ok for me to get judged, whether it's attention seeking, instagram, being childless (which I mind a lot because it was a bigger dream than the career I had), getting married, having a normal life. But like someone said here, I have to be sick in the head and I can CONFIRM, I AM sick in the head. Anyone who's considering CLL has to be so traumatized from being short that breaking their legs is their last resort.
But saying that, I am so glad that more people are getting educated about the process and are smarter than we were 2 years ago, and more R&D money is being invested for easier and safer nails. I've outlined many times, you can lengthen with so much less anguish and more success than we did because ISKD nails are obsolete even when 'weight bearing', they do break too (and of course, it would be the patient's fault...). And seriously, all Unicorn haters and trolls should definitely go to Guichet for lengthening to get their own dose of medicine.
In this very imperfect world, with imperfect information and imperfect me, I'm just trying to shed a little more light in this burgeoning cosmetic surgery industry.