Quote from: ForcedPuberty on February 23, 2015, 09:41:24 AMits because you remember how your body used to be. and you remember how strong and powerfull it was.
all of u sudden you appreciate how awesome you were. and then you freak out, the fear creeps in. after you appreciate how great you were before you start to seriously contemplate what it is that you have done to yourself, then you start to worry about if it is or is not permanent.
worrying about weather pain/possible damage is or is not permanent changes after you seriously appreciate how great you were before. it changes your outlook.
this happened to me on a microcosm. I cant even imagine what yellow spike is going through. also its possible that he did not experience the same thing I experienced. I wonder if he will resonate and agree with what I have said. or if he will state it is a different feeling that he experienced.
don't worry yellow spike, your pain will go, don't let those fears creep up, it will take time, surround yourself with people who are positive, who believe In you, and who believe in your recovery. it will strengthen your resolve. always understand that your going to heal. you only did close to 6.5cm and with a good surgeon. you will be fine. always tell yourself this.
Yea this is exactly it. Combined with being annoyed that I had to stop at only 6.75cm. I wanted a little more, but my body was really fighting me. Nerve pain, numbness, extreme tightness...Dr. G said I could go to 7cm, but I was having too many issues to keep going. Guess I'll get the rest of it from ItsMyLifes methods (yoga and gluco).
I have a very, very hard time believing that I'll recover. I have so many issues...it just seems impossible. Until I recover (meaning I can do everything I used to do at least 80-90% as before), I think I'm gonna be feeling horrible and regret doing LL.
