Calic - External Tibias - Dr. Sarin - 2013 - My LL Experience

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Oh and olivetree, don't forget to look at mmn_native's diary/video about Dr. Sarin's place before you decide upon this.

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Quote from: short_and_depressed on January 04, 2014, 08:28:55 PMWait, so you're getting leg shortening done for aesthetic reasons? 5'6" is such an awesome height for a woman. It's like *perfect* in my eyes.

Well thank you. I know some girls would kill for my height, but honestly it's always made me uncomfortable. Height neurosis can happen to anyone. What's perfect for some is not for others. I think in a past life I was a tiny Japanese chick lol. I'm not doing that much tho. I could go into detail but i don't want to hijack Calic's diary. And I don't think people would be that interested in a crazy leg shortening girl  
I have read mmm_native's diary. He's got a lot of stuff going on with him unlike me, and I'm staying there for a shorter time with a less complicated surgery so I'm not trying to worry too much.

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I'm speechless. 

I'll start a new thread later today regarding this insanity.

Calic: how are you doing?

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Quote from: olivetree on January 05, 2014, 06:19:59 AMWell thank you. I know some girls would kill for my height, but honestly it's always made me uncomfortable. Height neurosis can happen to anyone. What's perfect for some is not for others. I think in a past life I was a tiny Japanese chick lol. I'm not doing that much tho. I could go into detail but i don't want to hijack Calic's diary. And I don't think people would be that interested in a crazy leg shortening girl  
I have read mmm_native's diary. He's got a lot of stuff going on with him unlike me, and I'm staying there for a shorter time with a less complicated surgery so I'm not trying to worry too much.

You remind me of the sister at Sarin's guesthouse who also underwent height shortening surgery. Being tall wasn't her cup of tea. My room was on top of the house and every evening she would to come the roof to gaze out at the horizon. The image of her back still sticks to my mind. She was extremely unhappy. I was incapacitated at that time, but I wished I could tell her that she was already 100% lovely. Don't change. ><

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Aw :') no one should have to change who they are. But safe to say everyone on these forums knows being your true self is harder than it seems.

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Quote from: olivetree on January 05, 2014, 06:19:59 AMI could go into detail but i don't want to hijack Calic's diary. And I don't think people would be that interested in a crazy leg shortening girl    

Please elaborate I would be very interested in hearing how you came to the decision to have leg shortening. I won't judge you Be careful though, the leg shortening girl and her brother on old forum  started a diary and got so much flak from everyone they had it removed.

Quote from: Sweden on January 05, 2014, 06:26:46 AMCalic: how are you doing?

Doing well. I still feel a long way from how I was before LL but I am improving slowly.

I told a bunch more people about my LL. I went to visit an old friend and told some of his friends and people he knew about my LL. The typical response from everyone both short and tall is that it was cool but nobody really asked many questions about or seemed interested in it. I tried to talk to my friend who is 6'1" and his other friends who were tall as well about height discrimination and none of them understood - they were all blind to the social advantage their height gives them. There was one guy who was 5'10" that was very interested and excited about my LL and asked me a ton of questions. He quoted a few studies on height too - he was the only one who had any idea about the value of height in our society.

So far only 1 family member has noticed my height increase. My 93 year old aunt who I did not tell about my LL, she just looked at me and said "you seem taller".

It seems to me that most people do not really care about their height or the height of others. All of this makes me feel like I have something psychologically wrong with myself to think my lack of height had a negative effect on my life and had to resort to LL to change it. On old forum  I see a lot of people stating LL gave a huge boost to their self confidence. Personally, I do not feel any different about myself after LL. The only thing that is different is that I do not think about LL or height much anymore.

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Quote from: Calic on January 06, 2014, 07:53:17 AMPersonally, I do not feel any different about myself after LL. The only thing that is different is that I do not think about LL or height much anymore.

Not thinking about it itself is already a big change mate!

Keep it up and stay strong.


Tx

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Quote from: krin0610 on January 06, 2014, 07:43:20 PMNot thinking about it itself is already a big change mate!

True, I have peace of mind knowing my height will never negatively effect anything in my life.

How are things at the guest house?

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Quote from: Calic on January 06, 2014, 07:53:17 AMIt seems to me that most people do not really care about their height or the height of others. All of this makes me feel like I have something psychologically wrong with myself to think my lack of height had a negative effect on my life and had to resort to LL to change it. On old forum  I see a lot of people stating LL gave a huge boost to their self confidence. Personally, I do not feel any different about myself after LL. The only thing that is different is that I do not think about LL or height much anymore.

Hey Calic,

I'm glad that you are overcoming the superficial stigma that got us all obsess over this LL in the first place. Beside attracting girls, I don't see much advantage to being physically tall in this day and age. I think it's all about confident. I think being short really affects your psycho and that's it. And it's this psychology that cost us 4-6 months of our lives, lots of pain and suffering, 23k (including air ticket and other travel expense) and our health to go all the way to India for LL.

Actually, most short guys I know don't really care about their height. If you don't care about attracting girls, being short has its own advantage. When I watch a fight, I always root for the smaller guy. Being short is powerful in its own way because you are being seen as as underdog. And people always root for the underdog.

When I came back to work in July, I brought a case to the union against my manager because she was restricting my rights due to my disability. She thought about it for a week, and brought a list of things to charge against me. Even before the dispute, she personally told me that I acted angrily and that frightened her. WTF. She was trying to use the woman card.

Unfortunately for her, she was 5'11 and obese, over 400lb. And me, my sitting height as you know was only 58-59cm and I just came back from a starvation in India. She was towering over me, like David vs. Goliath. The union and the company sided with me and throw out her case. Within 1 month, I switched department.

Having said all this, I'm going through with my femur LL plan within 10 months. I'm happy to hear that you are recovering well and don't think about your height anymore... this is especially important since your legs are already really long. Keep us posted on your recovery!!

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Quote from: Calic on January 06, 2014, 07:53:17 AMPlease elaborate I would be very interested in hearing how you came to the decision to have leg shortening. I won't judge you Be careful though, the leg shortening girl and her brother on old forum  started a diary and got so much flak from everyone they had it removed.
Thank you for not judging me!:) You're the only person in the world lol. The only other person who knows is my ex, and he's a reason that drove me to it. I don't know about a diary, especially if that girl got shunned by everyone. I don't think people would be open minded..maybe even offended by the concept :/

I have another inquiry though. While at the guesthouse how do you go about taking a shower? Especially right after surgery with all the restricted mobility and weight bearing? Do you have to sit down? Can the frames get wet? My bad if this is a stupid or obvious question. I've just never seen anything in the diaries about the adventures of showering while leg lengthening. lol