I am just 10% of what I could have been than than if I was the right height

Or 20% being generous. It's all connected with the ultimate 3 reasons of why I need height. If I was like 5'9"-5'10", I wouldn't be seen as short by any social standards and I am physically taller than 95%-99% of white women population and 50% of men. We all know that women don't like men shorter than them.

But now since I'm only 5'5.75", I officially statistically fall into short category, only taller than 40% of the women and shorter than 95% of men. I can't help to think that it's world difference.

Now you may ask, what makes you think that 5'9"-5'10" is your right height? First of all my father is 5'9"-5'10" and my sisters are 5'5" and 5'4.5". To be fair, I don't see everyday other Asian guys who are good 3"-4" shorter than his fathers and barely taller than his sisters.

Either I gotta be really really really unlucky in genetic lottery or it's, what I prefer to accept as the reality, that I stunted my growth. I happened to do ALL THINGS that could harm growth, I mean ALL.

In the past, I believed that it's masturbation. Then I ate mainly rice (carbs) without adequate amount of vitamin and protein. But the most popular and what I believe to really have had a huge impact on my short stature is sleep deprivation and depression.

As you might know, the theory is that we grow when we sleep, if we don't sleep then there's no growth. By sleep deprivation, I meant consistent 2 hours of night sleep since the age of 10. Lastly, depression killed the growth cells.

Now, what's the reason behind my sleep deprivation and depression? School. And what's the reason behind me attending school? My parents. Believing my parents was probably one of the biggest mistakes I've done in the past.

Things will never be the same now. I will have to fight with the my 10-20% left for the next decades, for no necessary reasons.

Dude, lay off these stupid calculations, they are not helpful. Adult height is the result of many different factors, one being the environment and another being genetics, where over 100 different genes influence how your growth looks like. You might have stunted some of your potential growth - nobody can tell your how much that is 100% - or your upbringing might only have had a marginal effect on your adult height. A lot of teens barely sleep and still grow up tall. There is no evidence that depression stunts growth. The effects of depression, such as lack of sleep or nutrition can have an effect, but depression itself does not.

You might've reached close to your complete genetic potential for all we know. You are taller than your sisters. How tall is your mother? In any case, it does not matter too much now. Back in your teen years, you did the best you could based on the situation back then. Now you are where you are now. Work from there.

First of all, I'd like to say that I'm sorry that you've been through so much. It's no fun to feel that you may have made all the wrong choices when looking back.

There are plenty of tall people who prescribed to your way of living, so I'd just blame the genetic lottery; don't be so harsh on your younger self. I ate a ton of rice and not much meat either, and I'm only 5'5", but my mom is 4'11" so under the circumstances I consider myself lucky. Still shorter than my dad though, he's around 5'7".

Work on your depression first, and when you're no longer blaming your past, then look into CLL. Don't do CLL to fix the past, do it to improve your future.

If you are set on getting LL and you have bad depression, you should get that in check with meds/smth first b/c LL can get very lonely and difficult psychologically. You can't move around well for months during lengthening. There's occasional pains and stretches can sometimes get difficult. As far as I'm concerned you can take antidepressants while doing LL so you should get it dealt with first.

Quote from: jerkey on October 12, 2017, 09:06:54 PM