Hey, thanks guys. I talk to Guichet almost every day, more so in the beginning like multiple times a day but now theres not too much to talk about. Today was all about a minor complication. Basically, the nail in my right leg was stuck too far, very common and happens to almost everyone, and thus the clicking can be painful initially.
I completely understand where Slim_Tim is coming from. I remember before I did the surgery, I would read about diaries online passively while listening to music or watching a TV show while eating cereal and thinking to myself, "damn, i am a tough mudafka. how hard can this stuff be?" after all, i never cry, not even when my cat died. i am rlly calm and cool emotionally and i wonder if LL will break my calmness. that is, i wonder if i'll cry during LLing. nah, i decided. okay, maybe once. but that's it. no biggie. go to Milan. train. get nails inserted. grow taller. how hard can it be...
and so, just like that I came and trained hard and was super pumped and wired Guichet his money. come the operation day, i was like "FINALLY!!" bc i was bored. battlefield 4 was getting boring and i was honestly looking forward to some good ol hardship come the day of the surgery. finally something to ocupy my mind, i thought. damn right. about time...
what happened next was all caught on camera. needless to say, it was completely unlike ANYTHING i had expected. true, there are some that "breeze through" LL. but i have met MANY patients of Guichet, some ongoing and some to get their nails removed after a few years. and i have yet to meet one who did not say that LL wasn't the single hardest thing they've ever done in their life. maybe my sample size is too small. maybe this LL cruiser guy is elusive and hard to find. or perhaps he is a myth, written by those who only capture the best moments of their journey bc when they r down, they cannot even muster the motivation to type a diary. who know?
all i know is that for me, LL is one tough piece of and i wasn't prepared for it. i prepared as hard as i could, to a point where Dr Guichet is allowing me to do 10cm. i read many diaries and even made my own. i spoke and skyped with all i could. i meditated on how tough it was. and yet... i was wrong. BIG time. so i cannot blame anyone for miscalculating the difficulty of this task. i myself was at fault of this blunder.
that's why i am making vids. perhaps with vids, ppl will better understand the reality of LL where mere words fail to capture. but even with vids, the true nature of LL will elude many. that's totally cool. that's how it was meant to be. we r humans after all. 
Leechlet Internal Femur 2014 Dr Guichet
Hey Leechlet, I like your attidue: Yeah, I have pain, but "what's the alternative?" Getting back to short stature society?
The glass is half full bro, and that light, there's always that light at the end.
I get you leechlet, I apologise for my former comment. I was just jealous and frustrated on your thoughts of quitting while even having the best doctor in the world doing it for you, while my ass is off to Dr.sarin to butcher my legs.
Can you explain the pain you are feeling in your legs with detail and what goes thru your mind at that moment about the pain. E.x 15:32 to 15:46 while just laying there in pain.
And are you not on painkillers to numb the pain away?. Or is the pain to powerfull?
You look and more positive now leechlet on your latest video (watch?v=ngJ2p1AtEJc), way to go!
Hey Slim_tim,
Dont even worry about it. LLing is tough. No matter what is said or done or what dr u use, at the end of the day it's going to be rlly tough on every front, especially mentally. That's why i think we should all stick together. I'll always be there if u r going through a rough time during ur journey bc i know how gruesomely difficult the mental journey of a LLer could be.
I am not sure which vid u r referring to since i have over 150 vids, but in general the pain that followed surgery is like a very intense soreness. the sharp pain of the nail stabbing into my leg during clicking is like someone pushing something into my muscles, it's hard to describe but i feel like passing out.
all in all, things r getting better and that's something to look forward to. i am going strong to 5, and then hopefully 10cm.
hey guys, so i just woke up from a rlly long nap and talked with dr guichet. i am rlly emotionally unstable right now, which is werid bc i am usually a very calm and rational person before the surgery. i prized myself in my ability to think calmly and emotionlessly even in the toughest situations. but in the last two weeks, i have been all over the place emotionally, sometimes laughing one minute and crying the next, sometimes loving LLing and wanting to go 10cm and then do my tibia and sometimes hating it and wanting to go home NOW.
in many ways, i think that's the toughest part of LLing. but it's perfectly normal according to Dr Guichet. i feel like i have no control over my emotions anymore. i don't know if any old LLers out there can relate to this, but it's strange and frightening and humiliating bc i am not longer a stoic thinking machine that i once was. LL definitely brought me down a few pegs and now i don't even try to fight it. if i want to express my emotions and it's not harmful to others, i do it bc then it just passes away afterwards.
so basically, my posts r gonna be rlly all over the place but just bear with it bc it's normal. it's getting better day by day
leechlet,
Can anyone come over and stay with you for a while? Like anyone from family, friends, etc.? Most of the emotionally unstabilizing factors come from being lonely (not having someone to talk with right next to you - skype and phone doesn't count) and pain. Are you taking pain meds, or is Dr. Guichet very conservative about this also? Tramadol really helps in moments of intense muscle pain.
Hi Chris!
I am not in any pain and haven't taken pain med for almost a week now. Sometimes, I would take a tramadol if i am depressed just to get high. I know, that's sounds rlly stupid but it helps and i've only done it a couple times so it's all chill and i stopped doing it once my mood stablized more. i found that i am much more needy than before the surgery. i hang out with my helper now and we talk about philosophy and i teach him economics and english and stuff. we r going to church on sunday. i am much more social now in a bipolar kinda way. i talk to random ppl in the center just to get attention. i think the mood swing is mostly due to just hormones and emotions. but now i am slowly getting used to the reality that i am actually doing LL and things r gonna be like this for a while, so just chillax and try to enjoy it and learn what i can from this very unique journey
Lol, I know exactly what you mean bro. I love the dreams I get when I take Tramadol. Last time I took it, I was in Germany, in Dr. Betz's office. Everyone was German but they were speaking in English -with a German accent- and Betz was wearing a white doctor's shirt. However, his office was like a butcher shop or a sanitorium, haha.. The room was full of coolers and weird white machines.. Then a hot nurse got in, unfortunately that's when I woke up.. Man I know this sounds dangerous and freaky but I seriously love Tramadol.
Hey Leechlet, are you still taking the anticoagulant?
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