Hey guys
exactly one week had past post op
i am at 1.67cm total gain stabilizing at 21 clicks a day plus the 1cm at the operation (150 clicks)
now, i am basically pain free. but rlly tired all the time. i have no trouble sleeping. in fact, i have trouble staying awake and doing exercises.
the biggest challenge for me is to get through the mountain of exercises dr guichet ordered. also, i am not eating much as i don't have much appetite. finally, walking on a walker is a bitc*. i literally call dr guichet every single day, sometimes multiple times a day, asking angrily if i can get a wheelchair. but i try to use logic bc i know he's a rational guy. each time, he insist NO. then, i just cry and complain to my helper wilbert
overall, despite a what i thought to be a hellish week, i am actually a lot better than a lot of other patients according to current LLers with guichet. i am basically fine now with minimal pain and problems. i am actually a bit surprised that it's only one week post op bc last week, i didn't think i would feel like this today.
my mood is all over the place. that is perhaps the biggest problem of all. i feel happy and sad and angry and depressed and moved... all within a very short period of time. sometimes, there's a trigger. but most of the time, there's no trigger at all.
i have never had a period since i am a guy, but for u females out there, please let me know if it is similar to that phenomenon.
training is hard. i hate it. i want to skip training every single day, and even when i am there, i think of reasons why i am not able to perform or why i have to leave early. i feel like a teenager again. except i have literally zero mating urges. for the first time in a long time, i merely see women as bipedal apes with a distinct fat distribution, softer skin, and face caked with pigments like mandrill monkeys.
i just want to be left alone to sleep, and to have someone bring me food and water and listen to why my life sucks. wilbert does all that so he is the best helper i could hope for.
but at the same time, i have an urge to help others and to save the world, again not unlike my teenage self.
i find is very hard to concentrate, and i want to change activities a lot. sometimes, i would get bored in the middle of clicking to watch some youtube videos, take a nap, and finish an hr later. i have zero discipline and i hate ppl tell me what to do. i want to rebel against the isokinetic center and to set free all the crippled ppl in there like freeing animals in a zoo. of course, that's ridiculous. but those r whats going on in my find.
Smiley Grin Angry Huh? Lips Sealed Kiss Cry Lips Sealed mood swings everywhere....
How did you know it was his parent's money. I thought I read somewhere that he made $98,000 all by himself.