Quote from: helloworld on October 08, 2017, 10:01:59 AMGlad you are following a mainly plant based diet and are selective about what you eat!
About protein, if you think you need still more, I would take soy rather than casein, or albumin and stay away from BCAA.
For bone healing I only took lysine and arginine.
Hahahah! Looks like we're on the same wave length. I'm scared of casein. And yes, I've been taking lysine and arginine as well.
I didn't stick to plant based before and during lengthening, it was basically protein shakes, cheeses, eggs, meats, dark leafy greens, bone marrow etc.
Now that I've half a leg healed, I'm going back to soy protein yes! If our theories about alkaline based living is valid, I'm sure I've shortened my lifespan by a couple of years or decades with the prolonged exposure to high levels of meds, protein, radiation etc etc etc.
That's why the best I can do now is to detox my liver, sleep a lot and exercise a lot. And no stress, since I'm jobless 
) So no, cortisone production 
No sugars, no alcohol and narcotics.
UNICORN - Dr. Guichet Internal Femurs 8cm - Summer 2016
Quote from: Unicorn888 on October 08, 2017, 08:26:32 PMHahahah! Looks like we're on the same wave length. I'm scared of casein. And yes, I've been taking lysine and arginine as well.
I didn't stick to plant based before and during lengthening, it was basically protein shakes, cheeses, eggs, meats, dark leafy greens, bone marrow etc.
Now that I've half a leg healed, I'm going back to soy protein yes! If our theories about alkaline based living is valid, I'm sure I've shortened my lifespan by a couple of years or decades with the prolonged exposure to high levels of meds, protein, radiation etc etc etc.
That's why the best I can do now is to detox my liver, sleep a lot and exercise a lot. And no stress, since I'm jobless ) So no, cortisone production No sugars, no alcohol and narcotics.
Great that we are on the same wave length. Also, it sucks that you already seem to have a pretty ideal diet, because it eliminates diet change as a way to get faster recovery.
Unicorn, how are you these days?
Quote from: IwannaBeTaller on November 03, 2017, 11:50:11 PMUnicorn, how are you these days?
Hi,
I think the people who warn others not to read my journal because it's depressing as hell are right.
I've no news of anything. Nobody knows yet how to repair my 10cm non-union, and nail removal to change to another nail is currently risky because it might fracture my right leg further.
I know it sounds impossible to feel this way, but I've no life left. All my friends have left because they don't know how to deal with how miserable I am. They don't know how to deal with my handicap. And I am to blame because I push everyone away.
Even my own family does not know how to face me. It's a big elephant in the room that there's this daughter/sister who is a 40+ spinster, disabled, unemployed and poor. How do we tell our friends/relatives/neighbours?
I can't even tell you how we, the people who do not recover from this surgery, fight not to end our lives.
I wish I had opioids to be addicted to, because numbing myself out seems like such a pleasant idea. But I can't even get myself drunk let alone, get my hands on anything. I sometimes reminisce longingly about the moments I went under general anaesthesia because I get to zone out and not face reality. I guess when it gets unbearable, I pop a sleeping pill and go to sleep at 7pm.
I really try to wake up everyday telling myself, it's a brand new day, and it's going to change my attitude. But it doesn't. I take one look at myself in the mirror, wince at my painful knee, struggle to move and I lose hope.
I know everyone judges me nonstop, I've had people asking me why I don't try to walk with a straight leg or why am I hunched over so much. Or how I should try walking without crutches. They don't understand, I don't want to look like a monster either. But I've no bones, my tissues are too short, I cannot pull myself up straight, my left leg cannot help but curve inwards, and cannot be straightened. So yes, I hobble about and scare children.
I had someone else who saw my scars and exclaimed that I'll never be able to wear a skirt again. Really?! What I will exchange to be able to walk again, I'd go to work nked if that's what it takes.
I think avoidance is the next most painful thing I'm learning to deal with right now. Everyone averting their eyes or avoiding to hear more bad news from me.
I had a friend visit yesterday and she asked how I was feeling. I started to tell her and after about 5 mins, she asked if we could stop dwelling on bad stuff and watch a movie instead. So there we were, both tuned out watching a movie so that we can protect her feelings. That's the elephant in the room I'm talking about.
I've just become so angry with the world too, I feel like I gave a lot to receive very little back. That in the end, nobody owes you anything, and no good deed goes unpunished.
I'm bracing myself from hurtling further down the abyss, because I don't know how much more of this I can take. Maybe I'm suffering from chemical imbalance right now, but this is what it feels like when you do not recover from your LL 18 months later. Take note.
Guichet still chases me for money with some collector, writes my NHS doctor that he warned me not to lengthen to 10cm but I did it in secret, that his namesake nail can never runaway and I'm psychologically confused.
So my dear doctor pours salt on my gaping wound too, why not?
People considering the surgery should carefully read your diary before doing LL and take note of the many disastrous consequences they can face if things go wrong. Do you know why LL isn't more widespread? Complication-wise the surgery isn't worth it. Unicorn's diary is a good cautionary tale for everybody here. You can lose your job, your SO, and everything you care about. Worst of all, you can lose yourself in the process. Unfortunately, there have been many lost soldiers in the battle against LL complications. Unicorn is but an example of the fact that LL can be disastrous; there are many unreported bad cases I'm aware of. Take care you all and be strong, Unicorn.
Unicorn,
wish you all the best for your recovery.
Not having the support of people you love really hurts! What about your Dutch best friend, she is avoiding you as well?
Looking at your situation I think most people would be in fact be happy to have your life:
1. you are smart
2. you still have all your legs
3. you are still young enough to get children
4. you probably are not ugly
5. you have good education
6. you have good work experience
7. you probably would be able to get a job making more than 1 USD a day! Probably making eve more than 500 USD a day!
8. you are not married to husband that is violent
9. you are not starving
10. you are alive
In short you are better of than 90% of the world's population. So you be grateful every day for what you have.
If I were to offer you the chance to to switch live with another living creature, another human, a bug, a dog, but you have to take a chance and be that random other creature for the rest of your life would you do it? Probably not because your life as human is so much better.
If I were to offer you the chance to swithc with any other random woman, but you have to take a chance and be that random woman for the rest of the life, you also would not change, because you know that this other women probably has a worse life than yours; you will likely have less than 2 USD per day, or a husband that is violent, and no education.
Having a non-union is terrible. But overall you still have a great life!
Do not give up Unicorn! As Helloworld says, you got a lot of things to be happy for. You are a Harvard grad for christ sake! You can easily get a well paying job with your credentials. Keep fighting, you will solve this. By the way, friends that cut you off when you are in need, are not friends. You are better off without people like that, trust me on that. And remember "this too shall pass".
I'm trying to get a grip of my stormy emotions and anxiety attacks.
Here's the Before and After comparison :
And this is me last week :
I agree. Thats not true friends.
Be glad you Got Them out of your life and focus on the Nice People
You Will fix this
OH!
I am correcting my earlier comment:
4. you probably are not ugly = 4. you are very pretty
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