Is he a good psychiatrist? Yesterday I consulted a psychiartirst in my city

  Hey everyone, as some users know, I am having very badly severe height neurosis and that is leading to my constantly spouting a series of extreme statements like being short is equivalent to having Leukemia or similar stuffs so I wanna put my mental predicamnt to the end before I am punished by mods here to get me lost out of this forum due to my posts.
  I consulted a psychiatrist specialized in Depression and Anxiety Disorder in the center of Shanghai and he is a stylish 50+ y.o psychiatrist with good patiences and attitudes towards me and at first he asked the reason why I got Depression and I said it was bc I am short. And he kinda laughed out but that was anticipated by me cuz I know it's kinda hilarious to hold frequent intentions and even behaviours of suicide(Around 15 y.o I tried jumping for 4 times and hanging for 2 times to kill myself due to height dysphoria). Yeah you know what is next and afterwards he started to impose positive ideologies onto me through giving inspiring positive anecdotes about how successful and charming those short men he came across and knows of and tbh I didn't achieve any inspirations at all cuz I know they are just babysitting. And at last after he added some encouragements like I am promising and excellent except height and don't get too obsessed with height.
But for unknown reasons I burst out my extreme statments that I ever said on this forum:I'd rather choose Leukemia and Ebola than being short and blah blah. And he opened his mouth bc he was shocked a lot and laughed it off and shouted 'What?'. atm I knew I should've not thrown that kind of statements to him and finally he poured a backet of cold water onto me by saying 'Emm... All right. It seems to me that your height neurosis is more severe than my expectations.. Well.. Just take it easy young blood.. You don't need to think that way.. Maybe other psychiatrists are better options for you... As for me, maybe I cannot eradicate your mental problems.. Sorry.'
And in great despair I hurried back home and I posted the process of the whole consultation. What's your take?
I can't help thinking that way that having horrible diseases like poliomyelitis or osteocarcinoma is better than being short and it seems to me that no one can help me inhibiting this kind of negative thoughts to reside in my mind. I am rn at a loss what to do.
I am getting ready for Paley's Option 5 and considering to sell one of my houses for LL. I think $740K is definitely adequate for Option 5

I get your upset because your short and genetics didn't go your way however there are many short people who are not only short but have no one that even cares about them.

You have parents who will sell their damn house for you to get taller! Think about that.

Quote from: Highest on March 08, 2022, 05:30:28 AMI get your upset because your short and genetics didn't go your way however there are many short people who are not only short but have no one that even cares about them.

You have parents who will sell their damn house for you to get taller! Think about that.

Actually I've yet to make a headup to them that I sell that house for doing surgeries otherwise they will spank me for real!
I just told them I need that house to be sold and they don't ask me about my intentions any further.
But eitherway, IMO height is way more important than physical health, not to mention house.

Quote from: PET on March 08, 2022, 05:47:28 AMActually I've yet to make a headup to them that I sell that house for doing surgeries otherwise they will spank me for real!
I just told them I need that house to be sold and they don't ask me about my intentions any further.
But eitherway, IMO height is way more important than physical health, not to mention house.

Let me get this right, you have told your parents to sell their house and give you money but you didn't even tell them what for and they said yes?

Quote from: Highest on March 08, 2022, 06:05:13 AMLet me get this right, you have told your parents to sell their house and give you money but you didn't even tell them what for and they said yes?

Yeah. They are really that random at selling house LOL.

Quote from: PET on March 08, 2022, 06:07:19 AMYeah. They are really that random at selling house LOL.

Do you understand that most people on this forum who are in their 20s 30s even 40s have had to work for years to pay for this surgery and you are getting it for free? And you are still complaining

He doesn't sound very good, but few outside of the west are.  You need someone who'll help you to get the right medications through trial-and-error, and you need to do your best as well.  Some medications made me feel worse before they made me feel better.

Quote from: Medium Drink Of Water on March 08, 2022, 06:21:43 AMHe doesn't sound very good, but few outside of the west are.  You need someone who'll help you to get the right medications through trial-and-error, and you need to do your best as well.  Some medications made me feel worse before they made me feel better.

I took Escitalopram oxalate and Lithium Carbonate Sustained-release Tablets on a daily basis before and due to the ineffectivenesses I ceased to take them and at last I bagan to mitigate my depression by myself without medications.

Quote from: Highest on March 08, 2022, 06:12:30 AMDo you understand that most people on this forum who are in their 20s 30s even 40s have had to work for years to pay for this surgery and you are getting it for free? And you are still complaining

Personally I don't feel lucky at all at this point. I am only 162ish at night and come from the most heightism country although per se heightism is globalizing but you know China is always making jokes like 12 y.o average height is 183cm and men under 185cm are disabled. So 178cm cannot satisfy those toxic girls and they are convinced men not over 180cm are the shortest of the Genz cohort.

Until you fall more deeper into trouble in life you never realise how lucky you are. Don't follow that incel mindset where you believe you are unlucky because other people have it better than you and then start to grow an uncontrollable hatred on others.

You're lucky to be gaining 800K USD for your property and not having to work years for it so at least feel great for that, you can literally retire and never work in your life again if you invest that property but most of us here on the forum will be working our asses off till we're 65 years old. Don't you feel lucky about that? Life is not always about height.

I don't know how bad it is, but heightism is not only exclusive to China but everywhere in the world and since the dawn of mankind, being shorter than the average is discriminated in all parts of the world except it may not be as explicit as China but more indirect (and this could actually be worse). Don't be impatient, get the surgery and move on with your life.