Hello everybody. I am 16 and I am 5’8. I know I am not supposed to be here on this website but please hear me out. I need some help and I know that you all can support me since you all have the same issues as me. I have undergone severe depression several times, I went to 7 different doctors, and I tried suicide nearly 6 times. Nothing is working out. My height has taken over my life. I have never seen youth in my eyes because I am so fixated to my height. I cant explain you the feeling. My mind just shouts to me: taller, taller, taller, TALLER, TALLER, FUC**NG TALLER YOU BIT**. Every night before going to bed, I cry for at least 15 minutes. Same thing in the mornings. It’s actually funny because if I was just 5’10, I would be very happy. Although it is not tall, it is not “short”. Please just ask yourself: What kind of man are you if you are under 5’9? 5’9 here is average. When I look at someone that is 5’9 or 5’10, they sort of look tall to me. I look in the mirror and all I see abouy my self is someone with a short torso, short legs, short arms, week bloodline, bad genetics.... I just cannot take it anymore. I can’t continue living like this. I wish someone could just shoot me in the head. Funny what a couple inches could have done. I promise you that my height, 5’8, is not tall at all. I am sick of this torment. I do not get bullied over my height and it is not a relationship problem. In fact, I do not get bullied at all. I have more muscle then a gorilla. I bench press 310 at just 16. But I would rather give up the muscles I have trained for (4 years) and be fkI** 1 INCH TALLER. WHY DOES THE WORLD HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS? Can any of you feel me? At all? Should I undergoe this surgery and be happy for the rest of my life? I have a 4.2 gpa and I am looking to being a software architect in the future. They make at least 112k and go up to 200k. I will have a lot of money to get this surgery. I am planning on lengthening my tibia 1 inch and my femure 1 inch. I want my legs to be proportional and balanced. Are there going to be any problems after this surgery? Can I still be able to squat and deadlift the same? My muscles are just stretching... I don’t think it would make a big difference would it?
I should mention that I have fully stopped growing at 15. I started puberty at age 10. It is over for me. I got an xray and my growth plates are closed. And no, I would not obsess over scars because I already have 2 and like I said I am planning on lengthening my upper and lower leg 1 inch each. I do not think 2 inches will make a “disproportioned” body. Some models have super long legs and short torsos. And I have been to therapists before. Nothing changed. I promise you that I will be happy if I am 2 inches taller.
Quote from: Zeo on January 20, 2018, 05:48:17 AMThen get LL, how many years do you think it will be until you able to do it though, femurs are really expensive. I would just go for tibias, esp if you only want 2 inches, you can do it no prob. Best part is you will be able to afford it within a few summer jobs
I mean if want femurs you'll literally have to wait until you graduate college and get your first career job, so in like 6-7 years
So you just plan on being miserable for the next 7 years until you get LL?
Hey Zeo. I do not care about “waste of time and money” and if I were to be given an opportunity to gain a magical 2 inches by giving away 10 million dollars, then I would do it. The reason why most pwoplw have balancing problems is because they lengthen their tibias too much. Just how are you supposed to move when one part of your leg is bigger then the other? And you know what? I won’t give up. I do not care if it takes 20 years. I will reach my desired height no matter what.
Quote from: tallertree on January 20, 2018, 03:43:23 PMMy perception of this forum is that the majority is of normal height(170+ cm). Now, i totally understand the importance of height since im suffering from it myself but the amount of money and time required for this surgery, i cant really see how its worth it when you have normal height.
If i was 170cm (or close to) my life would look very different.
5’7 (170cm) is a “yeah sort of ok” height but I have seen a lot of people before who were 5’7 and wanted to be taller. Tom Cruise is 170 cm and it is funny because everywhere I go, I just see websites talking about how short he is. And then I look at Mark Wahlbergh who is 5’8 (173 cm) .... oh look, my height. And there are websites talking about how he is short. And guess what I am about to say now. I LOOKED UP 5’9 CELEBRITIES AND THERE ARE NO WEBSITES OF THEM BEING SHORT. Everybody under 5’9 is considered short. It is pretty funny. If I was just an inch taller I would be out of that zone. To get a picture of what I am talking about watch this: https://m. <<<< you saw that right? Not a single person that is 5’9 is listed up there. I really would have been happy at 175 or 177cm (5’9-5’10).
Quote from: myloginacct on January 20, 2018, 12:53:15 PMShoes and insoles go a long way taking away any torment your height neurosis may cause when you're out. Yeah, you have to take them off at some point, but so what? It won't be when interacting with the vast majority of people.
And being short sucks, but we also have to deal with reality. We can either work towards bettering our lives or let self-hate torment us to the point we can't do anything. It's also a complete "miracle" that osteogenesis is an evolutionary feature and can be used for CLL. Bone could simply have never evolved to regenerate so much, like it is the case for important tissues in the body. Just think of how many other shxtty things exist in people's lives in this world, where absolutely nothing can be done about it (diseases, conditions, upbringing, intelligence, etc). We are lucky to have ways out of this (moving elsewhere, CLL) and for dealing with this (shoes, insoles, therapy, drugs).
I already tried putting on those lifts. The next day when I came to school people were like: you look tall but you look short. When I told them that I was 5’10 they all said that it was wierd because my torso and my legs were short and did not match a 5’10 person’s torso and legs. They automatically noticed that I had lifts. And these were not my friends. They were girls that I just met. I hope you can picture what I am saying because if you arhave 5’2 and you are 5’6 when you where 4 inch boots, your torso is not going to look 5’6. Lifts are not great. And what if u take them off? People are gonna be like: wtf man u short shxt.
Quote from: TIBIKE200 on January 20, 2018, 04:56:59 PMThat is credible as much as stating that vaccines cause autism.
If you "look short" for a 5'10 person after putting on lifts (and you are 5'
than it means 2 things.
1) you are a troll
2) you are skinny as
I do not understand what you are saying. I am 5’8 not 5’😂. I am not a troll. I did not sign up for nothing. I am assuming you are here to make people feel bad about themselves. If you are going to be a worthless pcs of shxt then plz leave. you have no idea what I am going through with my height.
Quote from: Body Builder on January 20, 2018, 08:17:56 PM5.8 is relatively short in west.
Not short but average-short. Still, feeling so bad about your height while you think that with 5.9 everything would be ok it is stupid.
I am 5.85 (evening height) after LL and still have problems with my height but nothing like you and of course I don't think that with 1 inch more my life would be different.
I want to be 5.11 to feel ok so I want about 3 iches and thats why I want to do another LL.
So stop moaning and just do one LL for 2 inches and continue your life happily. 2 inches in tibias are easy, cheap and safe.
So continue your life normally until then and when you have the money and time do it. But your height is not that bad to feel like that with yourself. You probably need to go to a psychiatrist as you may suffer from depression and LL may not help you.
I do not care what you think think or how you feel. You are you and I am me. I feel that if I am 5’9 then I will live a happy life. 5’10 would make me even happier. I photoshopped myself being 5’9 and I started crying. I have never seen myself like that before. I understood what it felt like to be a tall teen. 5’8 is short in so many ways. 1 inch could have changed that believe it or not. I walk past people that are 5’9 and I would get my bones sawed in half to kill to be that tall.
Quote from: backrandom on January 20, 2018, 08:30:03 PMYour height has taken over your life. Right. Consider the examples of people like Unicorn or Musicmaker. In their cases LL took over their lives. You should help them.
I do not know who these people are and they do not concern me. I am worried about myself. I came here just to get a little bit of support because I cannot take this any longer. 24/7 my height is building me depression and as I said I tried commiting suicide 6 times. I need something to be done about my height urgently. I do not car if Ll kills me, if it gives me tumors, if it gives me a heart attack. I would take a potion that would reduce my life by 20 years just to gain an inch in height.
Quote from: Android on January 20, 2018, 10:46:07 PMWholeheartedly agree with Body Builder.
It's strange that you're beyond devastated at 5'8" but think that an inch or two will turn your life completely around. At that amount with your starting height, not many will even notice. I believe you have unrealistic expectations and inflated views of how much height is actually impacting your life.
If you've attempted suicide six times, this is not something you should take lightly. It's not a badge of honor, it's a cry for help. You're obviously deeply troubled and have body dysmorphic disorder. You need therapy and medication before even considering anything cosmetic.
So far you've deflected every suggestion, so I wonder why even start a thread if you already know everything. Ignorance combined with social empowerment is quite the concoction, I remember being a teenager too. But you came to us, not the other way around. We're here to offer advice and support, not to just agree and say you're right.
And to say that other people's diaries have nothing to do with you is just silly. CLL is no joke, you've got a lot of reading up to do. The notion that you think 2 inches across tibias and femurs is a good idea was already a red flag. This is a community, so if you're not interested in others, you're free to lurk until you're ready to have an actual conversation. You'll still get all the information you need in these forums if you're serious enough and take the time.
Probably one ear and out the other, but trust me when I say that it gets better as you get older. Teenage years suck because teenagers are ruthless. It gets better in college as people are less judgmental, even better once in the workforce. There's no magic potion, so relax, take your time, and get some professional help.
I am not trying to disagree with every single reply. People deny that my life will change completely around if I was an inch taller. And how do they know this? They are not me. I would be very happy at 5’9 or 5’10 and 2 inches is a very noticeable difference. Sure, for some people that height may be short. Listen from the bottom of my heart I think you are the best replier here. I do need help and I do hate my body. I really want to get the most advice as possible. But people keep saying stuff like: oh nah nothing will change, oh you wont be happy. They can never know for sure. I just came with the idea of adding an inch to my femur and tibia so I would not have any problems balancing. If one part of your leg is bigger then the other, then how can you balance? If I am wrong about something, please tell me. I am not here to start a tantrum. I just want people to understand that 1 or 2 inches will really give me much more confidence. I told you I wore lifts before. I was 5’9.5 and I promise you, I was not feeling short at all.
Quote from: Android on January 20, 2018, 10:46:07 PMWholeheartedly agree with Body Builder.
It's strange that you're beyond devastated at 5'8" but think that an inch or two will turn your life completely around. At that amount with your starting height, not many will even notice. I believe you have unrealistic expectations and inflated views of how much height is actually impacting your life.
If you've attempted suicide six times, this is not something you should take lightly. It's not a badge of honor, it's a cry for help. You're obviously deeply troubled and have body dysmorphic disorder. You need therapy and medication before even considering anything cosmetic.
So far you've deflected every suggestion, so I wonder why even start a thread if you already know everything. Ignorance combined with social empowerment is quite the concoction, I remember being a teenager too. But you came to us, not the other way around. We're here to offer advice and support, not to just agree and say you're right.
And to say that other people's diaries have nothing to do with you is just silly. CLL is no joke, you've got a lot of reading up to do. The notion that you think 2 inches across tibias and femurs is a good idea was already a red flag. This is a community, so if you're not interested in others, you're free to lurk until you're ready to have an actual conversation. You'll still get all the information you need in these forums if you're serious enough and take the time.
Probably one ear and out the other, but trust me when I say that it gets better as you get older. Teenage years suck because teenagers are ruthless. It gets better in college as people are less judgmental, even better once in the workforce. There's no magic potion, so relax, take your time, and get some professional help.
I am not trying to disagree with every single reply. People deny that my life will change completely around if I was an inch taller. And how do they know this? They are not me. I would be very happy at 5’9 or 5’10 and 2 inches is a very noticeable difference. Sure, for some people that height may be short. Listen from the bottom of my heart I think you are the best replier here. I do need help and I do hate my body. I really want to get the most advice as possible. But people keep saying stuff like: oh nah nothing will change, oh you wont be happy. They can never know for sure. I just came with the idea of adding an inch to my femur and tibia so I would not have any problems balancing. If one part of your leg is bigger then the other, then how can you balance? If I am wrong about something, please tell me. I am not here to start a tantrum. I just want people to understand that 1 or 2 inches will really give me much more confidence. I told you I wore lifts before. I was 5’9.5 and I promise you, I was not feeling short at all.
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