So today will be my meeting with Catagni. I can't sleep because of excitment.. You will wonder why (since it's only a consultation). For me this meeting will be the first time I will meet LL in the real world, not just theorizing about it in my mind and discussing it on the internet. This is the real "First step" which will decide what I am going to do.
My height neurosis started 2 years ago. While studying for endocrinology exam, one of the major chapter was growth defects. While reading it, I came across alot of writings about how it is of utmost importance to make sure that your kid (especially male kid) won't be short. Than I saw this huge picture of the W.H.O height diagram. For the first time, my height became a number that was put into a category and was statistically organized.. I became aware that I was shorter than 80-75% of other males on this planets... It struck me like a knife in the stomach.
From that moment of "realization" my height neurosis began... It started with the awful and annoying CONSTANT comparing while walking in the streets my height to others... It is a burden which I carried for two years now... This constant comparing, analizing, starring at other males and if they are taller than me or not. Walking in the streets became a psicological nightmare which I have no control over (I am not staying indoors because of it or something).
Afterwards, the simple mention of "Yeah he is tall, ohhh he is tall, I like tall guys, he is too short etc..." started to hurt my feelings (and before it didn't... I perfectly remember one of my girl buddies saying she doesnt like short guys and it didn't hurt me). It started to hurt me because I was now aware that this kind of compliement or whatever you wanna call it will never be adressed towards me.
Than came all the retrospective thoughts about how my life would have been if I have just been taller. These are the worst because we can't go back in time and there is no way to change the past or know "what would have been".
Today I am just in a situation where I can't stand it any longer. Yes. The main reason for me of doing this is to be more appealing to the other sex (Even though I did great till now)... I have had it with the "A few more cms wouldnt hurt you. Even though you are a little bit short you are still hot, once I got to know you, I didnt care anymore about your height, WOW! We are the same height!, I thought you were taller, you are lucky to be so good looking because you are not tall" and believe me that the list goes on and on and on and on...
I am happy (phyzically speaking) about every aspect of me (looks, muscles, shoudler width and what not) besides my height... Yeah, it's great that people and especially women are attracted to me because of my personality... But I want to feel wanted also because of my looks (Because I didn't f*king choose them). I want to be a guy that won't be put down just because he is not attractive enough.. It sucks to feel unattractive... It really is....
I remember this one incident where I was sitting with this super-model beautiful like girl. Everything was going great until we stood up. I DONT WANT TO HAVE TO LIVE THROUGH THAT EVER AGAIN (And it started after my height neurosis began).
All those feelings and thoughts are flowing through me because of the meeting today...
Sorry for the long post.
You have to take a deep breath bro, it's just a consultation....
The most impressive thing will be if/when he introduces you to real patients and you realize that you are no longer dreaming (you're not in Kansas anymore Dorothy!)..... so buckle your seatbelt and enjoy the ride.....
Quote from: ouroboros on February 29, 2016, 03:30:15 AMYou have to take a deep breath bro, it's just a consultation....
The most impressive thing will be if/when he introduces you to real patients and you realize that you are no longer dreaming (you're not in Kansas anymore Dorothy!)..... so buckle your seatbelt and enjoy the ride.....
He is my only option for doing this procedure (And It's not because of budget). If after the meeting with him I will not do LL than I will not do LL. I hope all will go well.
Somehow i felt,
if one is not tall, we gonna start with a base of negative points
-10, -20, -30 who knows, but from this position we have to work even harder by looking good, gym, humor, etc just to achieve the same outcome.I despise this feeling.Maybe it's just me.
But all the best for ur consultation!! , now a days i surf the forum at night sometimes till 2/3am. Often times the thought of being able to be taller gives me butterflies in mine stomach, the same kind that seeing a hot girl gives. 
lol.
He's going to say what you want to hear so really there's nothing "to worry about."
Eitherway, besides the sort of obvious mental problems you (and all of us have) that you don't really want to try to address that doesn't involve breaking yourself, good luck. Also you're not that short compared to the world; the male world average is around 5'7-5'8. Sure we live in western countries but still, I find it funny that you obviously made this assumption.
Quote from: hyong on February 29, 2016, 03:45:52 AM
But all the best for ur consultation!! , now a days i surf the forum at night sometimes till 2/3am. Often times the thought of being able to be taller gives me butterflies in mine stomach, the same kind that seeing a hot girl gives. lol.
That's unhealthy. My best advice is stay away from the forum...I'm so much more happy away from all this BS. You're only feeding into your own madness. Life isn't best if one is taller, so many other factors to life mate.
In my own personal perspective, considering I can only ever possibly reach 5'8, I'd come to accept that you can't have it all and that is fine. Life's full of people of all shapes and sizes that go throughout their lives contempt with what they have. I have plenty of friends in the 5'7-5'8 that I've talked about their height and they seemed oblivious to feeling "short," because they really don't care. That pretty much goes to show you the power of perspective on the human mind.
Quote from: Alu on February 29, 2016, 03:59:19 AMHe's going to say what you want to hear so really there's nothing "to worry about."
Eitherway, besides the sort of obvious mental problems you (and all of us have) that you don't really want to try to address that doesn't involve breaking yourself, good luck. Also you're not that short compared to the world; the male world average is around 5'7-5'8. Sure we live in western countries but still, I find it funny that you obviously made this assumption.
That's unhealthy. My best advice is stay away from the forum...I'm so much more happy away from all this BS. You're only feeding into your own madness. Life isn't best if one is taller, so many other factors to life mate.
In my own personal perspective, considering I can only ever possibly reach 5'8, I'd come to accept that you can't have it all and that is fine. Life's full of people of all shapes and sizes that go throughout their lives contempt with what they have. My height doesn't define me as a person
you dun need to reply to a mad man then
Quote from: Alu on February 29, 2016, 03:59:19 AMHe's going to say what you want to hear so really there's nothing "to worry about."
Eitherway, besides the sort of obvious mental problems you (and all of us have) that you don't really want to try to address that doesn't involve breaking yourself, good luck. Also you're not that short compared to the world; the male world average is around 5'7-5'8. Sure we live in western countries but still, I find it funny that you obviously made this assumption.
That's unhealthy. My best advice is stay away from the forum...I'm so much more happy away from all this BS. You're only feeding into your own madness. Life isn't best if one is taller, so many other factors to life mate.
In my own personal perspective, considering I can only ever possibly reach 5'8, I'd come to accept that you can't have it all and that is fine. Life's full of people of all shapes and sizes that go throughout their lives contempt with what they have. My height doesn't define me as a person
Great for you dude. So what are you doing on this forum again?
Quote from: Alu on February 29, 2016, 03:59:19 AMHe's going to say what you want to hear so really there's nothing "to worry about."
Eitherway, besides the sort of obvious mental problems you (and all of us have) that you don't really want to try to address that doesn't involve breaking yourself, good luck. Also you're not that short compared to the world; the male world average is around 5'7-5'8. Sure we live in western countries but still, I find it funny that you obviously made this assumption.
That's unhealthy. My best advice is stay away from the forum...I'm so much more happy away from all this BS. You're only feeding into your own madness. Life isn't best if one is taller, so many other factors to life mate.
In my own personal perspective, considering I can only ever possibly reach 5'8, I'd come to accept that you can't have it all and that is fine. Life's full of people of all shapes and sizes that go throughout their lives contempt with what they have. My height doesn't define me as a person
And no... The male world average is at 177cm. Just check the W.H.O graphs..
Quote from: TIBIKE200 on February 29, 2016, 04:04:42 AMGreat for you dude. So what are you doing on this forum again?
Soooo hostile lol. Why is that? I never understood the hostility mate.
In the end I've gotten everything that I need in terms of information about LL. I know my plan, I know it will be years before I do it, and I know what's in store. In truth I'm only here to see the end of certain people's LL journeys; they are good people and I want to give them as much support as I can. Once they are done, I don't think I'll return to this forum again.
Quote from: TIBIKE200 on February 29, 2016, 04:05:41 AMAnd no... The male world average is at 177cm. Just check the W.H.O graphs..
Post the link then. Also considering more non-developed countries I highly doubt it's that high, but if I'm wrong welp, good thing I'm more strong willed that I don't care lol.
https://www.google.it/url?sa=i&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=images&cd=&cad=rja&uact=8&ved=0ahUKEwifxceVj5zLAhUCDZoKHeR7DR8QjRwIBw&url=http%3A%2F%2Fbriuton.co.il%2F%3Fp%3D4587&bvm=bv.115339255,d.bGs&psig=AFQjCNEepAK_HJr4O3XTqB4CH7oRgWjV-w&ust=1456805899772036
First graph is for boys. Second is for girls. It measures height till 18 years. Information is according to the world health organization.
Knock youself out
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