How many of you thought about killing yourself at some point?

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Posted on Apr 20, 2021, 3:51 pm

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I was just thinking about the lowest point in my journey of height dysphoria. I was feeling suicidal a few years ago but I came to know about LL and it sort of helped me. How was your journey? Did it ever get this bad at some point? Has this community helped you knowing that there are other people who are depressed about this issue as well?

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Posted on Apr 20, 2021, 11:05 pm

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I've been suicidal for every second for 5 yrs simply because of height.

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Posted on Apr 20, 2021, 11:26 pm

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I was never suicidal due to height, but I do feel the same in the way that LL did give my life some sort of 'hope' or 'relief'- relating to the fact that I can finally do something about my height....

- I thought I would have to live with this height forever before discovering LL and this made me look forward to the future for once.. With the old knowledge I definitely had dysphoria about the future

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Posted on Apr 21, 2021, 2:59 am

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Hi guys, if you feel like that ask for some professional advice from a psychologist, it will help a lot!

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Posted on Apr 21, 2021, 4:13 am

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Quote from: Arcon on April 21, 2021, 02:59:09 AMHi guys, if you feel like that ask for some professional advice from a psychologist, it will help a lot!

I'm an typical example of short men asking for shrinks' advices that I should strengthen my self-esteem myself and forget about height discriminations(although I don't know if those shrinks themselves managed to)and they ended the whole processes with 'encouraging' short celebrities like Deng Xiao Ping,Jack Ma(although he was not short at his age compared to his peers)and blah blah.
What you will get is some kind of pyschoactive medicine but what you have paid is $0.5k.

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Posted on May 3, 2021, 1:23 am

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To be honest, I thought many times since my childhood (even almost tried many times), I never knew why exactly, I was always the shortest and the tiniest. Only at the pandemics (last year) I started to dig it out and found out I never liked and hated me by my look (height) and that was the major issue, but I loved who I was as person. I discovered why my ex cheated on me with my bestie who was taller than me (average height), and why other exs treated me like if I was just not that much, and I could feel and see it, I knew why my friends didn't give me that much attention and ""worship""? Or even voice. And why girls and female friends always said I was cute/beautiful and also a good sweet person, but would never give me a chance or hit me up. Since than my suicidal thoughts got worse and I think about it everyday and almost cry, I never went to the doctor, cause I know the bull they gonna say, but for me it's a big deal. CLL kind of got me a second chance of living and I'm going to save money from my 23 (right after grad) until 30-32 to do it and fix my issue. I'm always the shortest person in my university (but taller than some girls of course), and often girls ask me my height and compare to see if they are taller and that gets me into a bad tty day. Being short sucks tbh and I hope the future generations change that mindset. And oftenly I get asked from patients "how old are you?" and etc (im a medical student), because I look like a kid, mostly cause of my height, and I feel people (and patients) don't trust me that much too, beacause I'm too short.

So yes, CLL got me with my heads up and focused at studies for some years.

Sorry for the english grammar and if it's confused, it hits my emotions and I'm not native english.

I'm not trying to seek atention, neither help, I'm just sharing.

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To be honest, I thought many times since my childhood (even almost tried many times), I never knew why exactly, I was always the shortest and the tiniest. Only at the pandemics (last year) I started to dig it out and found out I never liked and hated me by my look (height) and that was the major issue, but I loved who I was as person. I discovered why my ex cheated on me with my bestie who was taller than me (average height), and why other exs treated me like if I was just not that much, and I could feel and see it, I knew why my friends didn't give me that much attention and ""worship""? Or even voice. And why girls and female friends always said I was cute/beautiful and also a good sweet person, but would never give me a chance or hit me up. Since than my suicidal thoughts got worse and I think about it everyday and almost cry, I never went to the doctor, cause I know the bull they gonna say, but for me it's a big deal. CLL kind of got me a second chance of living and I'm going to save money from my 23 (right after grad) until 30-32 to do it and fix my issue. I'm always the shortest person in my university (but taller than some girls of course), and often girls ask me my height and compare to see if they are taller and that gets me into a bad tty day. Being short sucks tbh and I hope the future generations change that mindset. And oftenly I get asked from patients "how old are you?" and etc (im a medical student), because I look like a kid, mostly cause of my height, and I feel people (and patients) don't trust me that much too, beacause I'm too short.

So yes, CLL got me with my heads up and focused at studies for some years.

Sorry for the english grammar and if it's confused, it hits my emotions and I'm not native english.

I'm not trying to seek atention, neither help, I'm just sharing.

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Posted on May 3, 2021, 1:26 am

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Yeah, they will try to change your mind to accept, and that's it. It's not like depression, it's just like "I don't want to live being like this"and that's all, at least for me

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Posted on May 3, 2021, 4:34 am

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Quote from: Future Skycraper on May 03, 2021, 01:23:32 AMTo be honest, I thought many times since my childhood (even almost tried many times), I never knew why exactly, I was always the shortest and the tiniest. Only at the pandemics (last year) I started to dig it out and found out I never liked and hated me by my look (height) and that was the major issue, but I loved who I was as person. I discovered why my ex cheated on me with my bestie who was taller than me (average height), and why other exs treated me like if I was just not that much, and I could feel and see it, I knew why my friends didn't give me that much attention and ""worship""? Or even voice. And why girls and female friends always said I was cute/beautiful and also a good sweet person, but would never give me a chance or hit me up. Since than my suicidal thoughts got worse and I think about it everyday and almost cry, I never went to the doctor, cause I know the bull they gonna say, but for me it's a big deal. CLL kind of got me a second chance of living and I'm going to save money from my 23 (right after grad) until 30-32 to do it and fix my issue. I'm always the shortest person in my university (but taller than some girls of course), and often girls ask me my height and compare to see if they are taller and that gets me into a bad tty day. Being short sucks tbh and I hope the future generations change that mindset. And oftenly I get asked from patients "how old are you?" and etc (im a medical student), because I look like a kid, mostly cause of my height, and I feel people (and patients) don't trust me that much too, beacause I'm too short.

So yes, CLL got me with my heads up and focused at studies for some years.

Sorry for the english grammar and if it's confused, it hits my emotions and I'm not native english.

I'm not trying to seek atention, neither help, I'm just sharing.

We are both wretches forgotten by God.I feel more miseries than you do cuz I'm only 163cm and I'm growing up in China,the most heightism country where if you don't grow tall enough you'll be 'transitioned' into disabilities by others.

In my country as the saying goes 'Men under 175cm(Nowadays 180cm) should be called 'disabilities'!',which at the same time keeps insulting both the disable and the short men.But I dunno why short women(even under 140cm)in my country can be considered as cute lolis.I think it's part because of imbalanced ratio of Chinese men and women.And Yea',nearly no women hit me up or got appealed by me.If it weren't my ex and now gf,I thought I'd already killed myself.

For Chineses,it seems as if a man is short,he is chainkiller or something.Anyway,he won't deserve social and romantic respects from others forever,although Chinese average height is not that tall even by now.

Anyway,I failed in suicides for 6 times.

But one thing I should warn you is Dr.LeeDonghoon's surgery is at higher price than even all of European surgeons'.I think you might as well turn to them for better cost performances.

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Quote from: Future Skycraper on May 03, 2021, 01:23:32 AMTo be honest, I thought many times since my childhood (even almost tried many times), I never knew why exactly, I was always the shortest and the tiniest. Only at the pandemics (last year) I started to dig it out and found out I never liked and hated me by my look (height) and that was the major issue, but I loved who I was as person. I discovered why my ex cheated on me with my bestie who was taller than me (average height), and why other exs treated me like if I was just not that much, and I could feel and see it, I knew why my friends didn't give me that much attention and ""worship""? Or even voice. And why girls and female friends always said I was cute/beautiful and also a good sweet person, but would never give me a chance or hit me up. Since than my suicidal thoughts got worse and I think about it everyday and almost cry, I never went to the doctor, cause I know the bull they gonna say, but for me it's a big deal. CLL kind of got me a second chance of living and I'm going to save money from my 23 (right after grad) until 30-32 to do it and fix my issue. I'm always the shortest person in my university (but taller than some girls of course), and often girls ask me my height and compare to see if they are taller and that gets me into a bad tty day. Being short sucks tbh and I hope the future generations change that mindset. And oftenly I get asked from patients "how old are you?" and etc (im a medical student), because I look like a kid, mostly cause of my height, and I feel people (and patients) don't trust me that much too, beacause I'm too short.

So yes, CLL got me with my heads up and focused at studies for some years.

Sorry for the english grammar and if it's confused, it hits my emotions and I'm not native english.

I'm not trying to seek atention, neither help, I'm just sharing.

We are both wretches forgotten by God.I feel more miseries than you do cuz I'm only 163cm and I'm growing up in China,the most heightism country where if you don't grow tall enough you'll be 'transitioned' into disabilities by others.

In my country as the saying goes 'Men under 175cm(Nowadays 180cm) should be called 'disabilities'!',which at the same time keeps insulting both the disable and the short men.But I dunno why short women(even under 140cm)in my country can be considered as cute lolis.I think it's part because of imbalanced ratio of Chinese men and women.And Yea',nearly no women hit me up or got appealed by me.If it weren't my ex and now gf,I thought I'd already killed myself.

For Chineses,it seems as if a man is short,he is chainkiller or something.Anyway,he won't deserve social and romantic respects from others forever,although Chinese average height is not that tall even by now.

Anyway,I failed in suicides for 6 times.

But one thing I should warn you is Dr.LeeDonghoon's surgery is at higher price than even all of European surgeons'.I think you might as well turn to them for better cost performances.

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Posted on May 3, 2021, 4:39 am

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Quote from: Coeus on May 03, 2021, 04:34:49 AMAnyway,I failed in suicides for 5 times.

😳 wow 😭 u ok???..

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Posted on May 3, 2021, 4:52 am

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Quote from: Serilium on May 03, 2021, 04:39:35 AM😳 wow 😭 u ok???..

I counted them wrong.

I tried jumping for 4 times and hanging for 2 times all at just 15 simply cuz of height.I'm also suffering from slight muscae volitantes.

Even in my gf's companion I've been also considering suicide for nearly 1 yr(only half year romance with my gf at present).

I'm also planning on gold nanoparticle muscae volitantes treatments coming in 5 yrs to kill all of the floaters in my eyeballs,which are also annoying me at the same time with my height dysphoria.

But I think solvable problems cannot be called problems like muscae volitantes.But height will be permanent pain that can not be killed by just medicine and fking shrinks for men.

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