LON Femur 7.5cm with halil buldu may 13th, 2021 God-Willing

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your leg better now? 

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Hope you are doing okay!

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Hey guys, thanks for the support above.  Been a few months since I’ve been on here.
I’m doing alright, I have a few issues. I’m walking normally and can do pretty much all normal things. I rode an electric scooter downtown for an hour, went skating rink (went very slow and was tricky to keep balance, but I always sucked at skating anyways, didn’t fall or anything).
I don’t really do anything physically intensive, just normal life and work. Longer walking for 30 min or one hour isn’t an issue. There are still some things I can’t really do, like if I sit on something very low I need just slight hand support to get up, looks completely normal and most people do it like taller and overweight people. But this was something I didnt do before ll. Not sure if cause of biomechanics change or strength. Maybe both

My concerns are though that I have pain in only my left leg top screw sites, especially if I press on the specific area. I’m pretty sure my bones are fully consolidated by now but I haven’t even had the willpower to go get an X-ray in months lol. It’s not a huge issue, I feel discomfort in the area here and there.
Not looking towards removing rods and screws but I think I have to do that asap as soon as it’s safe, which could be a long while.

My right leg is doing great, I feel like it’s 60% of what it is pre ll in terms of strength. Could be more and probably run if left was the same, because I’d be able to do more exercises like squats etc without my other leg tiring early. My left leg however feels much weaker and I would say 40% of pre LL strength. It makes slow progress. Also I haven’t really been doing much physio in last couple of months. My rom is normal and I feel like it doesn’t help. I need strength building exercise and my left leg kind of prevents me from that. I can walk up / down stairs unassisted normally and jog very slowly but I feel discomfort in the area if I do that time after time. Pretty sure screw is backing out or something. I really need to go see my doctor and I think I will soon, it’s just far and the real reason it’s pretty awkward seeing them lol. I’m pretty sure the weakness is coming from my left hip from the extra surgery, but I’m not a doctor.

Still doesn’t feel real that I did this, and being shorter feels like a distance dream even though it was a matter of months. Life goes back to normal for me and I forget the suffering I took except when I reread my diary it reminds me of the severe pain at times.
May or may not do tibia in future. Probably not. This has really cured so much neurosis for me. It’s a small insecurity I have now instead of a giant hole. But it did come with a heavy price. I don’t think I’ll ever be as physically strong as before. Even if you do 5cm. It takes a toll, and it can be depressing at times, and can make you feel like less of a man. Like around New Years some drunk guy called my girl a bi*ch  at a party and after an exchange of words I had to let it go because I would be defenseless if something broke out. Really bothered me for a while. I hope in the future obviously i would be a lot more capable, but I don’t think I’ll ever be where I was at before LL. Regardless of my height before LL I did wrestling for years and years and was at a point where I was able to easily manhandle my friends that were bigger and taller than me.  Of course there would still some amount of the population that could overcome you, it was a comfort knowing would’ve been a small fraction.
I don’t think any other cosmetic change comes with a heftier price. 3 inches for me was definitely life changing, but both good and bad. When I say 60% of pre LL strength on my right leg, that was me being a lazy fk and working out once a week. I used to be able to run or deadlift 50% aprx more in high school running track and wrestling than as an adult, so after LL depending on amount I don’t think you could ever be more than 60-75% of your full potential. Most people are fine with that. It only bothers them in their head. Had I not done LL I highly doubt ever in my adult life I would ever end up having time to run miles and train for hours on a daily basis anyways.

Would it be nice to be a couple inches taller, sure, but I would even say that at 5’10 or 6ft etc.
How I know that it really cleared my neurosis is that when I think of doing tibia, I have no motivation or care for it. I just think “meh it would be pretty nice to be a couple inches taller, but I have little motivation to go through all that again, even if it was free”. While my mindset of doing femurs was basically desperate to find a way, regardless of the pain and large amount of money. I have never done anything crazier in my life.

Last thing I wanna mention is weight. I weighed 127 before and weighed 143. Besides height I don’t where the weight came from. I was always skinny and am slightly less skinny from all the food etc I ate and lack of exercise but look close to same as before LL. Probably from lack of exercise. Im sure some came from new bone and the nails, but not 15+ Pounds

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Quote from: more on October 03, 2021, 06:50:40 AMYes you shared very important information for future LLrs . First of all any good surgeon will never do external  on femur.
Your story is eye opening for them who are completely dependent on Third party ( Marketing company) and trust them blindly , These companies are just money hungry, even Dr Halil Baldu is not pure he knows very well what he is doing just for money you can't separate him from this business.
Some fools  trust them blindly and post only good things even they are fkd up . like Meck.
I am trying to expose these agents but they are abusing me .
Meck was not so-called 'fked up' and what is making you sparing so time to write such a compressed piece of stinky st LOL.
Along his threads, Meck updated bad situations such as his severe knee pains, neuropraxia as well as good situations which you have already known about. So why are you thinking his posts were biased towards good outcomes instead of both bad and good ones? In addition, from current informations implied in Meck's posts, he is now getting very well along his new height and he removed his nails several months ago so plz prove 'Meck is fked up' LOL.
Plus, I am not planning to do LL under Buldu's hands but Paley's. So don't tarnish me as an agent or whatnot like you do to others.

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Quote from: PursuerOfHeight on February 14, 2022, 11:24:30 AMMeck was not so-called 'fked up' and what is making you sparing so time to write such a compressed piece of stinky st LOL.
Along his threads, Meck updated bad situations such as his severe knee pains, neuropraxia as well as good situations which you have already known about. So why are you thinking his posts were biased towards good outcomes instead of both bad and good ones? In addition, from current informations implied in Meck's posts, he is now getting very well along his new height and he removed his nails several months ago so plz prove 'Meck is fked up' LOL.
Plus, I am not planning to do LL under Buldu's hands but Paley's. So don't tarnish me as an agent or whatnot like you do to others.

Nobody is calling anybody an agent here. Based on the content Meck uploaded it's very easy to see he did a lot and maybe too quickly. Is he permanently screwed? Who knows. He definitely, 100% has a LONG road of recovery ahead of him. Be careful with this procedure; it's painful and dangerous. Not everybody walks away lucky.

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Quote from: PerfectBody on February 18, 2022, 09:29:11 PMNobody is calling anybody an agent here. Based on the content Meck uploaded it's very easy to see he did a lot and maybe too quickly. Is he permanently screwed? Who knows. He definitely, 100% has a LONG road of recovery ahead of him. Be careful with this procedure; it's painful and dangerous. Not everybody walks away lucky.
Yeah, I am not either advocating doing 18cm in total. That is very very dangerous and rare from my knowledges.

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Hey guys, long time no see. I forgot my login email so I made a new account to update. But my comment has been “under review” for almost two weeks and still hasn’t posted, so I was forced to dig through my 20 emails to reset my password. It may post eventually and it will be a copy of this comment, in case you see it twice.

https://imgur.com/gallery/y6XTX0I

This is my current progress.
My walking is normal with the exception I wake up stiff some days and have to walk 5-10 min to get normal. I can jog short distance and jump. No sprinting or high jumping ability yet. I refrain from jogging or intensity until nails and screws are removed. Haven’t been able to really make much progress due to screw irritation. Usually like a 1-2/10 pain (left leg only) when doing exercises more intense than walking (going up stairs, body squats). Once the nails and screws are out ( plan on removing in like a couple months ) I plan on really trying to get in the best possible shape I can. Left leg really hindered my recovery due to the complications and the screws starting to back out after fixator removal. Once they are out there are no excuses.

My dumb ass has still yet to get an X-ray. Been over 6 months since last one. I am going to force myself to go this coming week.

I am at aprx the one year mark. Crazy to think I actually went through with this. None of it feels real anymore and it becomes a distant memory as the time goes by. I forget the medieval like torture until I reread my diary at times and remember the immense pain from the pinsite infections, surgery, waking up shivering feeling so cold like I am nked in December etc.
Feels like the 3’ have been there my entire life. Being my height may not feel special to many other people, especially those born at it. But it made a world of difference to me. I think that’s what matters at the end of the day, I have rid myself of my mental problem and no more obsess about height because I am close to average and it does not bother me so greatly like it used to. I don’t have that gaping hole of insecurity I had at 5’5. It is just a small insecurity now at times, and isn’t bad at all. If I was born this height it wouldn’t have pushed me mentally to do something this crazy. Life isn’t bad at all at this height for me personally. At the end of the day the trade off is immense, and this surgery doesn’t bring you satisfaction only relief of being shorter. You trade your suffering for lesser suffering (being permanently less athletic than you were in the long run most likely). Even if you do 3cm I’m fairly positive your former self would be able to beat you up regardless if you lose 10/20/30% of your athletic capacity. But that’s just the way it is and for I would rather live with that than be 5’5 at the end of the day if I’m being brutally honest. This decision isn’t guaranteed and even though things didn’t go as smooth as I hoped I am thankful I wasn’t crippled or died although very rare it happens. If you do end up making this decision the last thing I want to say is please please please use an internal nail. They are able to have complications as well but 99% of the time they will be 1000% easier than what I went through.

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Glad to hear that you are doing well! Sorry to hear about the lingering pain.

How does the nail removal work? Will you do that in the states or back in Turkey?

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It’s only on the top screw site on left leg. More discomfort than pain it’s pretty low/ignorable but I feel it going up stairs etc. haven’t decided yet but not using Buldu again lol

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Ah gotcha. Do you have to get the screws removed (assuming that you don’t have pain, like in your case)

Few people talk about this part of the process